2350968's blog: "Old works"

As the bright light rises from the eastward yonder Your eyes are still closed Not quite ready to open As they wait for the dawn of morning to come The light makes it way to the apex of the sky And you are now flailing in pain As you make the motion to get out of bed The day is young But your body feels like it is beyond its years The groginess subsides as you flutter your eyes You awake fully and embrace the light of day As you get ready and get on your way To the tedious repetition of having to be alive And continuously feed your blood to the powers that be The day is no yours yet From 9-5 is your daily sacrifice The sun above has had its own routine to fill Moving from the waters of the east Shifting discreetly while shifting your dark outer shell Until it hits the gateway to the west Where by now You are getting ready to get your rest The sun repels down below the edge of the world And you are now sitting at home Pondering over things you tell yourself in your head You dream constantly of getting to the top But life is a burden which topples over your hope The light has made its perimeter rounds And now you are getting ready to close shop for the day Off to something beyond reality Where there is light shining more brightly Than the sun will ever shine

Love has always been vague to me I thought I have found it quite commonly But everytime I found that love You didnt find it for me Then one day through my foolishness I found you acting like a fool People say that fools rush in But we were both fools together And with that I found you The feeling was there again The one I thought I knew But you said you knew it And you felt it too And with that said We know who we are And that we both feel the same... It isnt love At least I dont know it yet But I do know that I have fallen for you And I would fall harder for your love You say that we will be together soon And I know you dont lie I will keep my promise to be with you And from there We will learn to love and fly Above the clouds and under the sea Beyond the fragments of reality We will fly together Into the bright setting sun...

I dont know where my mind is going anymore All day long I sit and stare away Into space, the forever infinite Why can't I just do something with the life I have... The problem is always on my mind But it wont get me anywhere in my life The solution is what I need to think about Only then will I have had an accomplishment Time ticks away while my mind is out to play Come back to it later But now I'm back in the now And I will hold my ground until it is time For the first solution The only one I need at all I open my door to the ones I have ignored Common sense and the sense of confidence I said goodbye to my enemy Arrogance And I started to turn back to take one final glance But I had no need for the that I will only walk forward and take advantage Of the first and only chance for my redemption And so tomorrow morning has begun I have finally awakened From the nightmare I created When I chose not to love and to hate Which in the end only brought me misery So now I take all these wasted years And turn them into how to get somewhere It seems like the journey will be tough But not as tough as going nowhere All in all There is nothing better than forgetting my problems And committing to the first solution...

And so when you think that your life is in check Check your position and see where you're at At the time things may look like they are done Done until something positive comes right along Along the path on which you once walked happily Happily thinking that life is the dream Dreaming is the escape for a lost injured soul Soul meets with mind and your life becomes gold Gold can only last for so long as all things do Do the things in life that you know you can do So now that you know The things that you have Are all you can give To yourself and them Just live with content and always remember That life will be yours to command And when the world tries to bring you down with them Walk away and don't look back at them And then things will shine And the dream will be real You and it will become one and all will be done...

The one who we all confide in Sits on his throne biding our time And we all do our bidding Of which we have no purpose of what it all is The one who knows what we dream in our sleep Injects our fantasy with thoughts of fancy And we take heed of these visions of grandeur And we dont know where to start and how to finish The one who makes what the future will be Prepares our minds for a war with no end And we train ourselves with the conquering of all land And we will all soon fall down below the ground

I have the plan in my head To make my dreams come to fruition All I need is to map it out And then accomplish the things I want I know it will work I just need the will to make it happen You will never make it work out Your plans are nothing Your dreams are only that Take my advice I have lived life longer I know how things go in this world You have to be real about your future It isn't as gray as you think it is Maybe you're right I might me dreaming And dreams dont mix well with reality Then again, dreams are things that can be made to be real I'm so confused now I thought I walked on water But I can feel myself sinking down now I'm just a figment of my imagination And I don't believe in my existence anymore... You are a kid with big ambition Living in a small small world Your thinking is gray, theres no such thing The world is only black and white... Make your choice You don't have to listen But I have the advantage of mature intuition I know how things are And you can barely fly solo out of the nest... I think that I know the right way To making life enjoyable and easy But it isn't so simple Life is a grueling task I try to think positively I want to live many years happily But with all this regret I am feeling I don't think my life will last...

I'm sitting here all alone Waiting for the time to go by I have 24 hours ahead of me And I don't want to waste any of that time It is now 2am in the morning And I have a long time to go I feel like sleeping but then again Why do that when I'm about to go? My body is perfectly healthy My mind is as active as ever And I have what I need in my life But all I want Is to die in peace And I depend on the time to die I don't want to end it all myself That would be selfish and it would only hurt others And so I wait for time itself To finally bid me farewell and to let me be... My eyes grow tired more and more My body is restless and it is now very sore Despite theses things, I do not care I appreciate life, and I have played quite fair I just don't feel like I can grow anymore And so the only thing left is to write the final chapter... My mind begins to contradict itself I forget everybody and now I'm all alone I ponder about what will come right after I meet my maker and I go to heaven Will I regret my thoughts and beg for a chance to atone? I don't wish to atone for my thoughts I know what I want and that is to die But time is late and and I hate to wait any longer I sit here waiting for my time to die I never go to sleep But I never lose my mind Time is playing games And I'm not in the mood now All I want to do is go to sleep again But I don't want to dream I just want to drift away.... The rain falls slowly in front of my eyes Cars drive by and their tire's slip and slide If only I could be inside And let go as the vehicle loses control...

Blast the fool in front of you Before he pulls the trigger first Dont just kill him, make him suffer Show him that you are better In these desparate times, a man must kill Or fall to the fool and be killed You have to put your mind aside And put your instincts to work The frontlines arent so far away The war is in your very own backyard We have to fight to make it right again Put your hands up and give them hell Just the other day I was walking down my street And some man thinks he can give me the beatdown I took my hands and I shook him on down And I fought him right out of town Theres no such thing as friend or foe Everyone can't be trusted I'm the only one who matters at all If you all fall, I wont fall I will stand above you and I will stand tall

Words can really fool the fool Who takes them in and thinks they are all true Words need life to be made real People think they can lie to seal the deal If you think you have me fooled You better think again I know your story to be a tale of fiction I was once like you, using lies to be accepted Some people are like mindless golums And when they fight you, you throw a tantrum I am not so naive and dense I walk taller than you tales and I can see clearly through your mist If you think you have me fooled You better take a better look the second time around My eyes are open and my sight is clairvoyant I can filter your words and I see nothing important A terrible mind is one that is wasted You say I'm a failure, and I am thinking the same But not of me, and instead of you Prove me wrong, and show me the truth

Time goes by as my eyes scan the world highlighted outside I stay in one place as it all passes so slightly Memories the only moving thing in my mind Ever so faint as they fade retroactively into the light Cant these things cease to move? Giving me time to catch up on all that is lost Years I had my eyes closed to And fears that consumed for far too long? When will I ever have the time to get it all back?! So many tears wasted, on so many people long gone Why did they ever say it would last forever? A contract beginning with a handshake and then a bullet in my head A fatal blow I have survived far too many times Cant these things cease to move? Giving me time to catch up on all that is lost Years I had my eyes open And insecurities that consumed the whole of me? When will I ever have the time to get it all back?! The road keeps passing my eyes As I sit still idly, not moving away Then it hits me, as I take my final breath The paradox that eludes all lost souls The clock stops ticking and tocking And I know now, it all means nothing