Oh god why me ?
Staring at my bleeding wrists.
I wonder why I deserved to be given this curse.
I want to live , I want to breathe, I want to be loved.
Oh god why me?
The arms that used to save me,
now torment me.
I need the feeling again, just to feel.
I hate the blackened loneliness that I feel.
I Want someone just to understand .
Oh god why me?
It seems like I am everyone else's strength.
Why do I feel so weak?
I used to love life ,now ,I have to fight to live .
Oh god why me ?
I want to run in the field of lilies, sip on lemonade on the porch swing.
Why do I end up being left alone over and over again ?
It just doesn't seem fair!
Oh god why me ?
Take me home to your paradise,
let me feel loved that way .
Then I won't have to say.
Oh god why me ?
Sapphire Jewel
aka
Valarie A Laboy
©
2006
