As I was going through these papers, I found a note that I had written to myself quite some time ago. I thought I'd share it with you.
Sarah Leigh,
It basically comes down to the following: you either get busy living or you get busy dying. It's up to you. You have to make the choices that govern your personal life. You are what you make of yourself. You are a product of yourself and your choices. You must choose to make it. You must make it for yourself.
After having found the undeniable proof of my own knowledge (knowledge breeds responsibility, folks), I posted that lovely pink sheet on my wall. I've read it many times today. Each time, my responsibility strikes me.
You see, I'm creating my environment. Not only have I plastered my walls, but I have also ripped apart my pantry, removing certain items. I have visual reminders, such as pictures of loved ones and my paperclip chain (for every pound I lose, I add a clip). Again, I'm creating my environment.
For me, structure has been a hard race to run. I don't exactly get support at home. In fact, I'd go so far as to say that some members of my family and friends subconsciously sabotage my efforts. So, in an effort to combat that, I have started clinging to structure and the support offered by all my lovelies. I've also started a 'regimen', of sorts, with my younger brother, who happens to be an infantryman. The great thing about having an infantryman on my side is that he focuses on discipline and applied knowledge, rather than dwelling on the negative bits or discouraging me in any way.
Joyce, strangely enough, I think you know exactly what I mean. I am so proud of you for having started your own journey to health! You are an inspiration in the fact that you realize who you are and what you need to do to become who you want to be. If you ever need a friend or whatnot, you can find me at eventhisisunavailablenow on yahoo. Even if I don't appear online, message me and I'll get back to you!
Hey, Tucker! That is awesome! I am so proud of your accomplishments! As I extended the offer to Joyce, I extend it to you; if you need a friend, I'm available!
I can't wait to hear all about the future success you two will definitely have!
