now here i am to shed a tear, to let you know my last fear. i had this love who was everything to me, and she was taken to heaven without this G. we shared our moments sitting on the swing, i would tell her rhymes and she would sing. her voice was an agelic with her soft touch, i love this woman so very much. nothing could stop me from loving this girl, she was everything to me she was my world. but in a flash just like that, she was gone and my head went splat. i could write about our happiness i could write about our love, but now shes an angel up above. so all i have is eternal pain, crying forever more then the rain. my heart was broken she was dead, all my pain was in my head. i took it out on others as they crossed my path if she was dead well you do the math! woman have tried to break down my wall, but i wouldnt let them in not at all. my heart was now made of steel, then i was taught to never feel. cold to everybody my family and friends, my heart was impossible for anybody to mend. lost in my darkness i had no where to go, my pain is now drowning me so i put it in a flow. people had wondered about my life and why at my age i dont have a wife. Ruby was her name i said it before, but i leave my pain at the door. alone in the dark God hears my scream, i only get to see her in my dream. her brother stops by to tell me hi, how are you doing? i have to lie. so hell is the place you might see me dwell, cause of the pain i let out that i wont tell. i smile for others while i cry inside, this is the truth i try to hide!!!