open my heart if you think you could, tell me you love me and tell me im good. i been hurt in my past, i only told one person about the pain i have. she knows why i keep my distance from you, and i wish that i could love you. maybe in the future i'll break down my wall, maybe i'll show up and give you a call. i just need to forgive myself for what happened in the past years, i condemed myself for her tears. heart break was the love i held so close, and in 15 years i guess im done i suppose. i never let someone get too close to me, i pushed then away and said you cant be with me. but i know someday i'll have to love, if im to forgive myself and have a chance to go above. i may lose you in this rhyme, its ok cause its for me this time. i need to clear out my head, im tired of being the walking dead. none of you could ever feel my pain, its what drove me insane. it held me tight and closed up my soul, the death of my angel let my heart go. my tears and pain i let out for all to see, i held back my suffering. the darkness i held oh so tight, the tears i cried every night. the pain i gave to others the torment i caused left me still and forever paused. watch as someday you might see me smile, but not too soon it will take a while. but i faced my past i ran from after all this time, im done crying and putting it in a rhyme. i went to her grave as i stood watching the children play, i told her i will see her one of these days. but not any time soon cause i must live, i must find a true love to give. all i have in my heart one thats true from the start. only one can hold me tight only one to kiss at night.
