Krissi's blog: "New To Fubar"

I lost my gall bladder over about two years ago and have had nothing but nightmares with food since..If I eat anything spicy you can bet I'll be in the bathroom for the longest time afterwards in the worst way...Dairy products seem to trigger back results with my tummy as well..Before losing my gall bladder I was in immense pain so I won't change that for anything...I guess I just wanna complain tonite lol...I am going to just eat like a rabbit for now on...I love my spicy foods but hell, it ain't worth being up all night in pain...

Well, me and Shawn have been together now 8 months and all is well..I know there are times I must work his last nerve but I know he loves me very much..The boys are so happy to have a Daddy in their life cause their real father is anything but....but that's a story in itself..I haven't been up to much this summer ..been to the school a handful of times but spent most of my time fishing or bowling-- yeah, i lead a very exciting life eh? I am in the process of getting my boys ready for school..the happiest day of MY year lol...My oldest, Robert, is going into the 8th grade..how time will just fly when you aren't watching...one more year then he's in highschool..am i old enough to have a teenager? ahhhh!!!!!! He is addicted to World of Warcraft- sometimes, i swear he dreams about it lol...he's a good kid but going through a tough time at 13...he's got my temper..poor child...well...Joey and Matt are like twins- they don't eat or sleep or play video games unless they are near one another...they are 11 months apart and I swear sometimes they are twins lol...except Matt has more of my attitude...that's not necessarily a good thing either...Christopher is learning more and more each day..I thank God that I found his special school for him..having my son talk in sentences to me and say "i love you mom" when we once thought he would never speak is a gift in itself....

I came home today to find my cat Harvey passed away on my bed...I have to assume that his heart finally gave out..I am heart broken...I loved him so very much and will always remember how he could make me smile no matter what...

After taking my cat Harvey to the animal hospital and spending in excess of $700.00(money well worth it)..we understand that his heart is over twice its normal size and he is having difficulty breathing..he is on two different medications now..In a week, we take him back for yet another xray to see if the medication is working and a possible ultrasound..I am so stressed because he is starting to collapse alot now...he doesn't seem in pain..I don't know if I should put him to sleep now before he gets into alot of pain but there is no cure or surgery to help his condition..he will either live about six months if it's the more advanced stage or a few years at best..my heart is broken, Harvey is my best friend so I may not be here online much...thankyou all for taking the time to read..
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Today I won't be online because we have to flea bomb the basement of my house..had some stray cats come in through there and leave their fleas behind lol..I have an appointment for 11am to speak with the vet regarding the results of my cat Harvey's EKG and xrays..I am so worried because they want to talk to me in person, I fear it's something very bad..I know he has a heart irregularity but I fear it's something much worse...He hasn't had a seizure in a few days but his back legs are a bit wobbly..I hope the medication he gave us will be enough to keep him going because Harvey is my best friend..Please keep us in thoughts and prayers..thankyou my friends..
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I took my cat Harvey to the hospital today because he had a seizure the other day..I assumed it was because of the first bath i gave him and used a flea spray on him..but it appears he has an irregular heart beat..something about one side of his heart not sounding right...They did some bloodwork today and I await the results..He is five years old - i got him a few months ago at the shelter for animals..we have become so close, i love him so much and now i'm scared i may lose him...My boyfriend Shawn spent the entire day with me...just supporting me...they kept Harvey for four hours hoping to get him to pee lol..good luck there..he wouldn't pee unless he was in his litter box..ahhh..now i have to get a urine sample from him..wish me luck on that one...I am trying to stay cheerful even though I am so scared..

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*** Written to my soul-mate Ron who passed away June 28, 2006** It will be two years next month that you have been gone from this world and each day is different- some are easier than others..Is it better to have loved and lost than to never loved at all? I don't quite know how to answer that..my heart still aches because you are no longer here to be with us( me and the boys ) but you touched our lives in such a positive way ..we are all better people because of you....There will always be a special place in my heart for you...Christopher occasionally mentions "Ron is in Heaven with baby Jesus" and if anyone deserves to be so..it is you...I wonder if Christopher being autistic truly remembers...but there is a special glow in his eyes when he looks to the stars and talks about you...He is doing so much better in school now- I know you would be proud!! Robert is working through a difficult time, being a teenager ....I can barely remember those days (laughs)....wow..am I old enough to have a teenager? Robert still talks about u and all the good times we shared- I know he will always remember you...sometimes, he wants to cry but is strong for me I think...Matthew is 10 now and his behaviour is much better than it use to be..he's not as much a brat like me anymore (giggles)..he helps around the house and of course is playing baseball...him and Joey are still like twins- hanging together...Joey..well..what can I say about him? He was your little shining star, your special guy and he's a good boy..he has his moments though (laughs) as all 11 yr olds do...Christopher is pushing along now..at 7 yrs old and working on a 4-5 yr old level, I couldn't be prouder! He loves the beach, playing with sea shells and collecting leaves, pinecones like he always did..he's a good boy and mommy is proud! I know you are looking down on them and please protect them as only you can... Four months ago I met someone very special..He reminds me of you in so many ways..I remember that talk we had in the park when you told me if anything happened to you that you would send me someone special to watch over me, protect me.....thanku...Shawn is a wonderful man and we plan on getting married and I know I have your blessing on that...I still have moments that I feel guilty for loving someone else- give me strength to deal with these feelings and understand it's ok to love again...I know there wasn't anything I could do to save you but I still struggle with the guilt..maybe I could have done more..you know how I can be... I am taking care of myself as best as I know how to...watching my sugar although I do sneak some ice cream (blushes) but what is life without a lil sugar? My weight is ..well...I lose some, gain some..but I am taking my anti-depressants to keep me from getting too low...I'm taking things one day at a time..that's all I know how to do...as for the boys dad......well, nothing has changed...he seems to have little/ no compassion.....maybe you can send something to wake him up to reality lol... Just realize you are thought of each day and forever loved...

Today I went to the local animal shelter and got myself a cat named Harvey..He is about 5 years old and omg he's huge lol...I jokingly say he must have eaten a cat he's soo big! He is very friendly..kinda on the shy side and just is enjoying sitting in my bedroom window watching animals pass by...I love him so much and I'm so happy!!!!!!!!

When the "storms of life" gather darkly ahead, I think of these wonderful words I once read And I say to myself as "threatening clouds" hover Don't "fold up your wings" and "run for cover" But like the eagle "spread wide your wings" and "soar far above" the troubles life brings, For the eagle knows that the higher he flies The more tranquil and brighter become the skies... And there is nothing in life GOD ever asks us to bear That we can't soar above "ON THE WINGS OF PRAYER" And in looking back over the "storm you passed through" You'll find you gained strength and new courage, too, For in facing "life's storms" with an EAGLES WINGS You can fly far above earth's small, petty things.. (Helen Steiner Rice) ~...they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles...~ Isaiah 40:31