i just wanna break down and get on my knees and beg him back into my life but it sickens me to know anyone can have this much power over me,how just talking to him for a minute brings everything i ever felt for him back in a second.Sometimes i wonder if he knows the power he holds over me,if he knows how far i would go for him,if he knows the love i truely have for him.When we meant it was like "damn this man is gonna be mine one day" and when it happened i kept my joy to myself, i kept my feelings to myself in fear he would reject me ,in fear he would say it wasnt like that for him but that wasnt the case instead he said he was in love with me that i was what he wanted.His love is all i ever wanted and without him in my life,i am able to move on able to find someone who loves me as much as i love him but im so afraid i'll never find it,im afraid he's already passed me up.I shouldnt feel this way,i shouldnt want someone who doesnt want me but i cant help it.I wish that one day he reads what i write and he says come back wishful thinking i know but still its a nice thought.
