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It's been 6 months since my ol'man passed away, this is the first time i have blogged dince then on any of my sites. I miss him like crazy still look for him to walk through the door any minute, my since of denial has just gotten worse and tha pain well I have no words for that. I just want my baby back, I know thats impossible but somewhere there has to be a path to meet in the middle, dreams have become nightmares I hardly ever sleep just lay there prayin for god to take me too. Each day does not get any easier they only get harder, as people tell me I just need to get over it, well how in the hell do you do that? OK I'm done spilling out my gutsfor now anyways.
It breaks my heart to know there is a man out there with two beautiful daughters, whom he can hardly ever get to see. I just hope and pray that one of these days he will have his chance in the sun and get to be the father he thrives and dreams of being for his girls.
They say he's not their dad, but never give him a chance to be their dad. Now how fair is that?
You know there are men out there who don't want anything to do with their own children, and it is just a shame for they miss out on so much, and never realize it and don't really care.
The men who do care and want so much more are denied that right of passage, for one reason or another, I don't know what anybody could ever do to deserve to be thrown to the side like that and be deprived of knowing all the wonderful child hood experiences they have to miss, is just a down right shame for the children always seem to pay for the mistakes of the adults. And at some point everyone deserves a second chance, no matter who they are., especially with their children.
THERE IS NO GREATER LOVE THAN A FATHERS LOVE FOR HIS OWN KIDS.
I can see it in his eyes
I can feel it in his soul
the pain he is going through
He thinks nobody knows
As I sit here and watch him
I pray to god to take his pain
For he has suffered enough
for the mistakes he has made
sometimes I feel so helpless
cause theres nothing I can do
to take the pain he feels inside
and make it all anew
I wish I could say I am the one
the one that can turn it all around
For I love him so
theres nothing I would'nt do
But deep inside I fear the love
is not enough to mend the heart and soul
That has been through and suffered so
For My One and only, I Love You
