Wednesday I went to the club, like usual, for karaoke. Only one of my friends was there with her aunt. It wasn't the same with everyone else not there. Alex was at home sick, 2 of my friends had to clean house, and I don't know about the others. For some reason, to me, my voice was off and I didn't do as well as I usually am. My friend, Lyz, kept telling me that I did great. Her and her aunt left about 11-11:30 so I was alone. A bunch of guys kept looking at me and trying to approach me, and I just didn't feel comfortable. I didn't dance at all like I usually do, either. After I sang my last song, "Bring Me to Life" by Evanescence, I decided to leave. On the way home I kept thinking about how I can't really sing or dance. At that moment I decided to never go to the club again. There's no point if I can't sing or dance, right? I have no talents....now I find myself back at square 1.
I'm getting into Florida Virtual High School to take courses to get my last 3 credits I need to get my diploma. Adult Education at OPHS already said that I can bring in the paper saying I got my last 3 credits and they'll issue me a diploma. I got my muffler fixed Friday, so it's not so loud anymore and doesn't sound like shit. (It had a BIG crack in it, hence the loud, awefull noise...for those of you wondering why my car sounded like that.) I haven't been able to find a job yet, but I'm pretty sure once I get my diploma I'll be able to get one no problem. Once I have a job, and hopefully it pays well and gives me plenty of hours, I'm going to put my whole check in the bank and save up to get an apartment so Alex and I can get the hell out of here.
Those are probably the only things really looking up for me now. All my life, ever since I first started really getting into singing and dancing, people have told me that I can do those things, that I got what it takes.....but ever since Wednesday I've been thinking differently. A couple years ago my best friend at the time told me that he was going to sign me up for American Idol and have my mom force me to do it. heh As you can tell, that never happen...and never will. I'm not that good.... v_v
Thank you for reading this, they're just my thoughts. It's up to you whether you want to leave a comment or not with your opinion about all this. <3
