On November 20,1997,my daughters 2 birthday, I found out I was pregnant again.
I was so happy that I could have another baby.
After my first child i was told i couldn’t have anymore kids because of an infection i had gotten.
At 6 weeks i started to bleed and cramp, so my dr. sent me for a ultrasound.
On December 9,1997,is the day my ultrasound was scheduled for.
little did i know i was in for a very big surprise of my life.
the ultrasound tech was a friend who went to church with me.
she started the ultrasound and then she stopped and said she would be back.
not sure of what was going on, i started to get worried.
she came back in and started the ultrasound again.
she was saying oh heather, oh heather, look baby 1 and baby 2.
Twins!!!!
i was having twins.
after the ultrasound i was told to go to my dr.'s office.
at the dr.'s i was told everything was ok and that i was due July 26,1998.i was so excited.
i went home and told everyone that i was having twins.
January 1998, i had to have my gallbladder removed.
i was taking the chance of losing my babies.
but if wait until after the babies are born,
i was still taking the chance of losing my babies and me.
my surgery went great.
every month i had to have ultrasound done to make sure everything was ok.
on April 19,1998,i found out i was having a boy and a girl.
i was so excited.
the end of april i told my dr. neither baby was moving very much, so he did another ultrasound.
both babies were doing good, i was told.
in may i got really sick, I was admitted in to the hospital.
i was there for about 4 days and then sent home.
may14,1998 i woke up and i was bleeding and about 10 minutes after i woke up, I went in to labor.
i went to the hospital, i was there most of the day.
they got my labor to stop and sent me home on bed rest.
so i did as the dr. said.
that night i went in to labor again.
this time i was dilating and they couldn’t stop it.
so they sent me to st. Louis, mo.
when i got to st. louis they tried to find the babies heart beats and could only find one.
so they did a ultrasound, and then told me with no one there with me that one baby was dead.
most of the 15 of may was a blur, because they had me so drugged up to stop my labor.
on may 16,around 4am i woke up in labor again and had a lot of pressure.
so the dr. came in and checked me, I was told before the day was over my babies would be here.
they told me i could have an epidural.
so after my epidural, i was able to sleep for a few hours.
around 10am i was told i was fully dilated, and it was time to push.
i laid there praying that both my babies were alive.
i pushed and pushed for hours.
finally at 12:00pm my daughter Kailey Ann was born.
i waited to hear her cry but nothing.
my daughter was gone.
they told me she weighed 3 pounds and was 15 inches long.
i didn’t want to see her.
i laid there waiting on my son to be born, but an hour went by and the dr. said they waited long enough.
they told me when my son wasn’t ready to be born yet.
they told me he could come at any time.
we just had to wait.
they also told me he might not live long.
while they were cleaning me up, I asked to see my baby.
no told me what see looked like, so when they brought her to me, I pushed her away and told them that wasn’t my baby.
about 30 minutes later, i was in my room and i wanted my baby again.
i got to hold her, but never got to hear her cry or smile.
i had her most of the day in my room, just holding her and taking pictures of her.
on may 18,i woke up, no pains, nothing.
i was in labor and fully dilated.
the dr. done an ultrasound and told me they had to take him now because they were losing his heart beat.
i was told i might lose my son too.
at 10:30am Brandon Lee was born.3 pounds 7ozs and 16 inches long.
i waited again to her my baby cry and then he cried. that was the happiest i had been in a few days.
i knew i had to be strong for my son.
i went home 2 days after i had him.
i was there at the hospital just about every day.
on may 30, i put my angle to rest in heaven with god.
that is when everything hit me(hard).
i just about lost my mind but then i thought about my angels brother, he needed me.
things were rough on me for awhile until Brandon came home.
on June 26,brandon was able to come home.
times have been rough with him, but we got though it.
this year brandon and Kailey will be 6 years old.
it is very hard for brandon to deal with.
he is always talking about her.
he knows there is something missing in his life and he wants it back.
no one can bring her back for him.
may 16 is going here soon and i hope i can deal with it better this year.
