Lost Cause XxCBPxX's blog: "My life"

So I haven't been up to making this post even though its been a month.  Four days after I made my last blog, my step mom passed away.  February 23, 2012.  I still can not believe that she is gone.  I was in denial about it until  I went to her funeral and saw her name above the door.  I broke down immediately.  There were so many people at the funeral which just shows how amazingly loved she really was.  All I keep telling myself is that she is not suffering which is the most important part.  She did not deserve to suffer like she did, no one does.  The worst part for me was when my step niece, she is three, came up to me the day after Nancy died, and goes "Where is my nana?"  It was horrible, made my heart and stomach sink right into the ground.  I looked at her holding back tears and told her that nana is in heaven, which is what her parents were telling her.  

I keep freezing up while I am writing this.  I am not the best with expressing my emotions.  I usually try to act like everything is fine.  For me to even write these blogs is huge for me.