ErnDog's blog: "my shoulder"

Well this a blog to tell u about a true friend that is sweet and kind to others, she has the biggest heart and i love her. i met this girl in high school and she never knew i had a crush on her until now. But now I have the chance to be with her always and I hope she knows this that i care about her and always will.

This a blog to let everyone know why I have been so depressed. I think one reason is its a genetic order that i got from my mom and I dont understand why I get so depressed maybe its because I cant handle the loss of my grandpa and now might be losing my mom as well so if I lose my mom that will be the end of it. I know my mom didnt raise me or my brother but I will always love her no matter what. I lost my grandpa in April and if I lose my mom I dont know what I will do since she has been there for me through it all. And for this is why I am so depressed at times......

I have been on ct since dec. 26th and finally met the girl of my dreams. She took my heart the first day I met her nd no one else is going to take that away. She has a heart of gold and I knew right from the start that it would be forever when she first said hello and me and her have many things in common as well and I will be with this person till the day I die. I love her so much that there are times i cry my self to sleep wanting to be by her side but cant right now but will be soon.

this blog goes out to my grandpa. He was a great man who I loved. He was a Lt. COL in the US Army and served in WW2 and fought for his life on pearl harbor. He had it all until he died but now that he is gone I sill think about him every day and it hurts to know that I will never see him smile or even say I love u to my grandma. There are times still where I will see him like he is standing beside me or sitting at his desk at my grandmas. Grandpa I love you and U are always with me now in my heart.. http://s89.photobucket.com/albums/k204/wherescharlie111/?action=view&current=forthekids.flv

what is the meaning of depressed anymore I honestly dont know but I am and dont know why Maybe i just think about alot of ppl to much and I get hurt or maybe its a feeling of guilt always thinking that I am not anything just another human tha doesnt feel like he belongs on this earth. There are days i just want to crawl in a hole and die...

this is a blog about wishing? I wish I could have a better life. U know just throw out the old and bring in the new. Well why oh why cant I do that. My life sucks as far as everything is concerned. But who will ever know what ever happens. I guess I will end this blog for now and write some more later

This is a blog to to say I couldn't have made it very far without the friends I have especially my two lovely sisters Penny and Anne, and we cant forget the most wonderful lady of them all Connie. I wanted to say thank u for being there for me when I needed u guys the most. U guys are a great family to have I dont need anyone else. I cry sometimes just thinking that I may lose one of u as a friend or family but that wont happen and I know we now have a bond that cant be broken no matter what.....

well this sucks the day after xmas of all things i have to screw up my shoulder so bad that i can barely use my arm and it hurts so bad i could scream. I fell about 2 ft out a window and fractured it bruised the tendons severely and dislocated it how fun and I have to type with one hand and it sucks. Luckily i have some friends who are helping me but its going to be a long battle....