Elizabeth502's blog: "My Poetry"

Why must you reenter my life? Is it just to toy with my emotions? Make me yearn for what we once had? You wreak havoc on my heart How easily you penetrate the wall surrounding me Emotions erupt whenever you're near You bring to the surface my past regrets Of letting you go, of walking away Are you seeking revenge? Make me wish for what might have been? While you remain distant and aloof Just when I think I'm over you You remind me of the love we shared You instigate the possibility of reuniting Only to vanish into the ether Perhaps by questioning your motives I can somehow resist your pull Your control over my heart astounds me No one else has reached so deep You seduce me with your charm Your whispers promise heaven Yet your actions reveal the lies What I've always felt for you, It hasn't stopped or faded with time What must I do to keep you by my side? I take chances with you I'd take with no other I leave myself vulnerable to hurt But stopping the inevitable is impossible Maybe I've realized fighting is futile And just give in to what I feel for you I've let myself hope this time will be different And I'm not sure if I can handle more disappointment The seeds of love have been replanted but must be nurtured With one careless act of neglect You could kill my love for good So take care and be sure of what you want

Make this pain go away I've wasted too much time I've cried too many tears I've relived every memory This can't go on. Please take this hurt Please end this ache I have more love to give But he won't take it I can't pretend anymore I refuse to fake it I've loved and lost If feels like no one understands No one feels the same as me Lonely hours slowly pass I watch the clock Each tick, each tock resonates inside me I beg for sanity, but my plea goes unspoken I scream, but my cries go unheard I'm torn and shattered My thoughts are scattered And all I dream of is you I can't focus, nothing is clear All I know is I want you near I'm tired of waiting Waiting for nothing to come

Am I being placed in a role? Forced into a game I'm not willing to play I'm receiving mixed signals, mixed emotions Gentle and rough, strong and weak, calm and angry I'm trapped between heaven and hell, pleasure and pain I just can't read between the lines Maybe I'm just not strong enough for this These cavalier ideas of right and wrong You didn't find your way into my heart But how do I now get you out of my head? How can I just walk away, lesson learned?

Make me share my secrets Confess my sins Bear my soul Bring me pleasure and pain Spin me about Never before and always again This is what you do... to me.

What began with a kiss Ended with betrayal I'm tired of being Florence Nightingale Maybe I need to be healed I've been used to mend broken hearts But who is here to lick my wounds? Every whispered promise, broken Every shared dream, shattered Every kiss, every hug, every touch Your lies destroyed the world And left me torn apart and scattered You visit me in my dreams I wake up reliving bittersweet memories The heartache and screams I still have to face Your tender arrows turned to jagged glass Left my heart crying crimson tears Each drop of blood filled with regret I can feel my life slipping away

I'm in way over my head I guess I'm not ready for this This freefall in the dark I'm worried I might crash and burn Maybe I'm just scared of where I might land I've lived enough with heartache And I have no plan to dwell there again I could be investing in self sabotage So here I am, overanalyzing the situation Maybe I'm setting myself up for more hurt I've been too committed to self-flagellation And I'm not comfortable giving my trust so easily I'm afraid to walk into the unknown I just need some reassurance That everything will turn out okay

You say I hold your heart in my hands But I can't feel its weight within my grasp I can't hear its beating in time to mine I can't see the depth of its love You say you share my soul Does it resonate? Does it glow? Is it a heavy burden? I bet it's like a lost companion A shadow, not always seen but never gone It may creep up on you from time to time You say I'm always in your thoughts Am I also in your dreams? Do you think of me when you cry? When you wake, when you sigh? Does you mind wonder what I'm doing? Or if I'm thinking of you too? Oh, I always do. It's hard to write this down It's hard to think these words But if I don't get them down I may forget what I needed to convey Remember that love is not something to be hidden To be overshadowed by fear or doubt Loneliness doesn't stop you from loving But it may make you want to It could fill up these pages With a single thought or feeling.

Leave me breathless Forget the words almost spoken My will is bent but not yet broken A minute of your time, one small token Watch me slip and fall away Leave me here to wither and decay Witness me drown in the abyss I reach out, hoping to be saved But you're not there to rescue me But you don't care as you stare While I sink into the ocean of my pain You don't know what it's like How can i make you understand? If you could see what I see Or feel what I feel You'd know this love is real You'd know that I'm dying inside While I watch you with another Giving her all the love once given to me Feel me yearn for your smile As I watch it bestowed on someone else Love is a minefield One misstep and all is lost I search for a place to hide Lick my wounds in secret I gather my strength In an attempt to live again After all this time There's still scars on my heart

The same old scars Bleed with fresh pain Rip the flesh anew The arrow of betrayal Lances my heart Each breath I take Another mistake Your aim was true Was that your plan? To kill the love I felt for you? I feel trapped in a cage A prison of my own making Wake me up from this nightmare What do you do when hope is lost? When everything good is gone? What can be done when love isn't enough? I thought I could survive without you But I was wrong What do you do when your world stops turning? Because you don't stop yearning Don't stop burning Lights dim Conversations once intriguing Now just background noise Interest is lost Life doesn't seem the same And colors fade to gray

I should have seen it coming My eyes saw through the lies But my heart was blind I can't look at my reflection Because all I see is you I'm tired of reliving these memories I guess I wanted more than you could give And my love wasn't strong enough to keep you You could have been my forever You gave me reasons to live Now you give me reasons to cry You gave me reasons to breathe Now I'm wanting to die