BADKITTEN's blog: "My Poems"

You once said,

I was special.

but then you once told me,

you would never leave.

but look,

here i stand.

all alone,

not scared nor frightened.

you left me,

with tears in my eyes.

with strength,

hidden deep in my heart.

my sould once black,

now beautiful.

beside me,

stands a wonderful man.

one that, looks in my heart.

that man,

than man is you!

I see a man,

a wonderful man.

Full of secrets,

full of mystery.

A wonderful man,

with joy to give.

A man,

with a boy at heart.

I see a man,

a wonderful man.

Full of life,

full of beauty.

A wonderful man,

with soft brown eyes.

I see a man,

a wonderful man.

Full of color,

full of me.

A wonderful man,

that looks at me with love.

I see a man,

a wonderful man.

Full of laughter,

full of love.

A wonderful man,

that i have a chance to love.

A promise you gave,

without any words.

A kiss you gave,

that took my breath away.

A look you gave,

that spoke your heart.

Your gentle hand,

that is placed upon mine.

Your mind,

that listens so carefully.

Your arms,

that embrace me.

Your shoulders,

that are open to me if i need comfort.

A ring you gave,

that unlocked my broken heart.

My soul is wery,

My heart is gone.

he took it away,

and left none.

He looks at me,

with precious eyes.

holding me close,

to his side.

The warming kiss,

he offered me.

Left a mark,

to treasure thee.

The words he spoke,

left an emabrace,

of love inside of me.

All the times,

you yelled at me.

All the times,

you couldn't look at me.

All the times,

i let you down.

All the times,

i couldn't count.

I'm sorry,

for letting you down.

For all the times,

you said i love you.

All the times,

I ignored you.

All the times,

you were never there.

And all the times,

I never cares.

All the times,

I sat at home.

For all the times,

you never called.

I'm sorry..

for letting you down.

All the times,

the tears came flowing.

For my heart,

was breaking.

For i was sad,

And for all the times,

i love truly loved you.

Im sorry, 

you let me down.

The moment,

you gave me the kiss,

stuck in memory,

never to forget.

How you brushed,

my hair out of my face,

gently placing,

your hand upon mine.

Looking in my soft green eyes,

with a smile of comfort to embrace.

Slowly bringing up your hand,

placing it upon my chin.

Coming closer to me,

tilting your head just a bit.

Closing your eyes,

and touching me lip to lip.

That memory i could,

never forget.

Not talking, 

Not listening,

Just staring in space.

Not looking,

Not hideing,

Just sitting here in place.

Not caring,

Not crying,

Just thinking about you.

Not eating,

Not sleeping,

Where i could be dreaming of you.

Not hoping,

Not wishing,

Just to see you.

Not wanting to live,

Not wanting to be here,

Without you by my side.

But here I stand all alone,

in my mind.

confused,

and beaten on the inside.

Scared of being alone,

All my life.

Scared I wont be,

With you when i die.

 Does anyone care,

Does anyone notice.

If i were to die,

would anyone cry.

If i was to leave,

and never come back.

Would anyone care,

to fight back.

If i began to hurt myself,

would you try to stop me.

If i tried to sell my soul,

would you be there to take it back.

Does anyone care,

does anyone notice.

My heart,

beginning to hurt.

The tears,

that fall out.

The blood,

that leaves my empty cuts.

Would you be there,

like a true friend.

To help me find,

myself again.

Instead of standing on the sidelines,

watching me slowly die.

Watching my face,

turn pale as white.

Watching the tears,

stream out of my eyes.

But truly...

Does anyone care,

Does anyone notice.

If i were to die,

would anyone cry.

Would you be there,

When i truly needed you?