I have such a hard time some days.....
I fight this battle that should be way done and over....
but its not....
the thought is always there.....
not a day goes by that I don't think about going back.....
No its not going back to the relationship I was in....
its something I gave up a long time ago....
I know I shouldn't.
I know its not good for me...
I know ppl will kick my ass....
Its my personal battle....
It was my crutch for so long....
Why is it some days I can't get it outta my head?
I try to fill the void with alcohol and sometimes it just don't work
Its my battle....
I have to overcome it....
I have to win....
I can't let myself
and
everyone else
down!!!
I won't!
I refuse to!
I cry because the urge gets so bad!
Why haven't I gotten over this yet?!?!
