HELLO EVERY ONE,
I THOUGHT I WOULD LET U IN TO MY LIFE.. AN TO GIVE THANKS TO A FRIEND THAT IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME, IN THIS BAD TIME.. IN THE LAST YEAR U ALL KNOW HOW BAD THINGS HAVE BEEN FOR ME.. WITH ME AND MY X.. HOW WE JUST CANT FIX OUR MARRIAGE.. SO MANY BAD THINGS HAPPENED IN 10 YEAR.. THAT WAS IT FOR ME.. AN IN THAT TIME I GROW TO SEE THAT I'M OK WITH OUT HIM.. THAT WE BOTH DON'T NEED TO KEEP THIS ROAD GOING IN TO MORE PAINFUL MEMORIES.. JUST THIS WEEK WEEK WAS OUR 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY.. YET I ENDED IT OUR MARRIAGE 3 DAYS AFTER HIM BIRTHDAY.. WAS NOT PLANING IT TO BE RIGHT THEN.. BUT THAT'S WHEN IT HAPPENED.. SO HERE I AM GETTING THE DIVORCE I WANTED FOR SOME TIME NOW.. WE BOTH KNOW I DID.. AN IN THE END I KNOW HE KNOWS ITS BEST FOR HIM TOO.. WE BOTH DID ALOT OF WRONG DOING TO ONE ANOTHER.. BUT THERE WAS ONLY SO MUCH I COULD TAKE FROM OUR PAINFUL LIVES.. SO I HAD TO END IT.. IN LESS THEN A MONTH.. SO MANY MORE BAD THINGS HAPPENED.. LIKE THE FACT MY CAR HAS BEEN IN TWO WRECK LESS THEN 2 WEEKS FROM ONE ANOTHER.. AN THE LAST ONE WAS LAST FRIDAY.. I HAVE NO CAR NOW.. I LOST MY NEW PLACE CAUSE MY X DIDN'T HAVE THE MONEY TO GIVE ME.. HE HAS NOT GIVEN ME THE FULL AMOUNT FOR CHILD SUPPORT EITHER.. JUST GAVE ME ALOT OF BROKEN PROMISES.. SAME THINGS IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN IT SEEMS.. :( BUT NOW I LIVE WITH MY MOM.. AN I HAVE TO DEAL WITH HER AND THE WAY SHE TREATS ME.. HOW I'M TOLD I'M NOTHING AND THAT I'M A BIG FUCK UP.. AN IF U ASKED ME ABOUT ALL THIS LAST WEEK.. U WOULD SEE THAT I WAS SO HURT BY IT AND JUST STARTED TO THINK WHAT SHE TOLD ME WAS SO TRUE.. BUT I HAD TO FIRST STOP PUSHING AWAY SOME ONE THAT HELPED ME SEE THAT.. I'M STRONGER THEN I THINK I AM. I KNOW I DROVE THIS PERSON CRAZY WITH HOW I WAS FEELING AND THINKING.. BUT THIS PERSON GOT THROUGH TO ME.. AN NOW I JUST HAVE TO TELL MY SELF.. I'M SO MUCH BETTER THEN MOST THINK OF ME.. I'M A GOOD MOM, FRIEND, LOVER, AND MANY OTHER THINGS.. SO WHEN I FEEL DOWN.. I THINK ABOUT WHAT MY DEAR FRIEND WOULD TELL ME OR ALL READY HAS TOLD ME.. AN I SMILE CAUSE THIS FRIEND IS RIGHT.. ITS GOOD TO HAVE SOME ONE TO MAKE THE WORLD GO AWAY.. AN I THANK THIS PERSON FOR DOING THAT WITH ME.. IT HELPS ME.. I HAVE A BETTER DAY CAUSE OF THOSE TIMES WE HAVE.. I FEEL BLESSED TO HAVE THIS PERSON AROUND.. SO THANKS SWEETIE FOR ALL U DO.. I HOPE I CAN RETURN THE FAVOR ONE DAY..
ANY WAYS.. THE THING IS RIGHT NOW THINGS ARE VERY BAD.. COULD BE WORSE.. BUT I FEEL STRONGER THIS WEEK THEN I DID LAST WEEK.. AN AS THIS ALL GOES ON I KNOW, ONE DAY I WILL BE STRONGER.. U ALL KNOW HOW BAD MY LOVE LIFE HAS ALWAYS BEEN.. NEVER HAVING A GOOD MAN.. SO MAYBE, JUST MAYBE I WILL FIND SOMEONE IN ALL THIS BAD.. THAT WILL BE MY REWORD FOR ALL THE THINGS I'M GOING THROUGH NOW.. :) FUCK I HOPE SO.. HA HA
THANKS FOR READING.. THIS HELPS ME I PROMISE.. HA HA TAKE CARE OF UR SELF..
