DIXI DIVA's blog: "My Life"

On Valentine's Day this year my boyfriend of almost 3 years finally purposed to me. Granted yes I know he can be a hardass sometimes but I still love. He is my son's father so in a way I have to love him hehe. j/k I love you baby I know your reading this. I just can't wait till that day, just one sad thing is that I will not have my father walking me down the isle as he passed away when I was 6 years old, so iwill hopefully be having my Uncle Clay (awesome redneck) walk me down the isle he has been more of a dad to me then anyone. Yeah I plan on having one of those redneck weddings, with a shoot out, mud wrestling, mud boggin, and hell maybe even that matress surfing I saw on CMT. I just can't wait, i really can't.Anyways I'm outta here. byes

today i feel as if ct is starting to turn into a public school where everyone had special clics and dont give a rats ass about anyone else. i ahve posted shit and no one reposts them its a bunch of crock cause i have to repost them myself. i am depressed tattoo had to start his new job sooner then planned, my grandpa has to have surgury this move as well as my grams they are going down hill quickly. It worries me and yet again this is another xmas that is missing some family members. my birthday comes up on thursday and i dont think anyone is gonna do anything for me. what they is happening im gonna be 20 but i dont feel it, cause for crying out loud im not graduated yet for many reasons. i need a drink so damn bad right now but i wont cause i am the only one here with my son. i need to escape to where i dont know. and no one give me a smartass comment about that. well im gonna go before i bore you to death

Hey everybody I forgot to tell ya'll how my weekend went. It went so great i wish it could of lasted longer then one night but couldn't afford it. We had a whirlpool hot tub, oh man did that feel good. I got drunk which was cool mike hard berry baby i also had blue uv but i didnt have none of that. Later on we went down to the arcade played a couple games, I whooped tattoo's ass in air hockey hehe. Played a couple shooting games. Even later on after the pool cleared out we went in there. Man I thought it was awesome how they had it set up. A little kids area to the right with jungle gyms, thses thing where you pull the string and you get alot of water dumped on ya, and sprinklers for the the little one. Then you come to the middle area where it was a pretty good size pool no deeper then 5.5 feet, had a basketball set up with four hoops. You know how you play h-o-r-s-e well we played w-h-o-r-e. hehe and man was there some pretty chicas watchin us every now and then they were fine not too skiiny not too big. then in the back left corner there was a nice hot tub with a beautiful waterfall oh man wish i would have gotten a pic of it. But there is always next time but we gotta find one that allows smoking cause that sucks going outside in cold rain mixed with snow weather.

hello everyone nothing too much going on here just bored and tired cause nick woke up at 430 this morning and messed up the sleepin schedual. Ray my bf got home early today about 6 or 7 i think i dont really remember i was half awake. Since our plans for this weekend foiled out we are thinking of having a romantic getaway just for ourselves to try and bring back the love. i am hoping its in a town we've never been at before but who knows it might just be one we've been at before. All I do know is that its gonna be out of this cest pool town milwaukee. On other news there was some cool car crashes last night one right outside our apartment. One car ran the red light hit this marron impala right in the side so hard it went airborn and landed on top of the other one. the as end of the impala was airborn not touching the ground i have footage on my vid cam, but the picture on the digital camera didnt turn out so im trying to figure out a way to get that on my pc to put it on here. then there was a head on downtown and one drunk guy ran into the back of a parked car damaging atleast the three cars infront of the parked one. the third one back was on its nose. its looked cool on the news i will try to find the link for it

hey everybody im bored as all hell i need to my level up so get everyone to add, rate, and comment if you want to see more pics and all. today i got pissed off cause they had a super sized overload on my street and took me about 20 35 minutes to the post office. when i got to the post office i put up with the traffic for nothing no mail for us today. Im also mad cause the post office lost a movie from blockbuster a gretchen wilson one she is hoooooooooooooooott and i mean i would fuck her all night long

Im so depressed and pissed off right now for many reason I wont say on here. Just letting you all know I'm in a bad mood and need cheering up. I'm almost ready to cry.

Last night was really wierd.....I went to bed aroun 1:30 2 oclock in the morning i woke up around 5. It had felt like someone took a razor blade and sliced the back of my throat numerous time and I had the taste of vomit im mymouth although i didn't puke, I had troubles talking, swallowing, and a lil bit of trouble breathing. So I called my boyfriend and asked him if he could come home. He could, so i went and layed back down I fell back asleep. He woke me up when he got home asked me if wanted to go in or wait and see and make appointment later i chose later. And now it is going on 10 am and its allgone but still not feeling right. What could it of been, a dream so real, a spirit trying to reach out to me, or just a coencedence(spelled wrong i know)

Hey everything in my life so far is looking better, so far hope I don't jinx it. But knowing my luck I did. My boy is getting big, but i think the time change is going to fuck things up tonight cause he has been sleep since about 9 o clock, i hope not i hope he stays asleep till morning since I'm the that gets up to take care of him. Was suppose to get drunk tonight guess I'm not now. Talk to you all later.