My grandma means everything to me. I have memories of my grandma always on the go and active and always doing something. Now when i see my grandma im like what the hell. It kills me to see her not health and in the bad shape she is in. My 11 year old cousin has it easy because she really doesnt have the memories that i have or the rest of my family has. its not easy for my family to see my grandma like this. it kills us because of the memories. I am ready to throw up my hands be like i dont care anymore and im done.