Sunshine's blog: "My feelings"

Try to wash away the guilt Scrub it harder Scrub until u bleed Believe it will come clean Wash away the guilt only in your mind The sorrow in your soul Wash it down the drain Try to make it all go away Wash it away Scrub harder then you ever have before Your thoughts are as in pure as your heart Haven’t you figured out yet you will not scrub it all away Try and wash it away If only they made a soap to make you clean again Pray to the heavens above that you can take it all away Watch it swirl down the drain The pain the tears floating away In the soapy water Its ok don’t worry your lies Pitiful cover-up will be washed away In your tub of dissect So be my guest Wash it away Make it all better with a scrub Wash it all away

I hurt you with my lies I hurt myself wit them too I caused you pain with my distance My pain I try to deny I ask for your forgiveness in which I do not receive I am disgusted with myself for not being truthful with you Why did I have to lie? You gave me no reason not to trust you yet I doubted every move you made In the end you hated me I still hated myself more I pushed you away and in reality all I ever wanted was you Your love was everything to me and all I did was throw it away We always kill the best things in our lives You were the best in mine. I caused you pain still to scared to admit it’s all my fault for your sorrows Ashamed of the choices I made with you Once we were inseparable now the distance between us in unbelievable I can’t believe I let it go so far how I thought it would never come to your ears For you to hear the truth in which I tried so hard to hide from you for so many years Now it t makes no difference you look at me with disgust and I don’t blame you I caused you pain in which you did not deserve for this I am truly sorry... I wanted to give you happiness and in return I have gave you nothing but pain

So as many of you may know I have been going though a rough patch in my life. Being Dumped and being very sick as of lately had put a damper on my life... it was hard for "Sunshine" to Shine! I just wanted to take this time to thank a very selected few for helping me see that I am who I am and there is not a damn thing wrong with that! So to you! I thank you from the bottom of my heart! I also have alittle news for some of u! I have met a Greatttttttt Person in my life and couldnt be happier where my life is headed!!!! =) I feel that with this new chance at happiest I am diving in with two feet!!! So wish me luck hahaa! So thanks again to my family list!! I couldnt have made it without a single one of u!!! PEACE!!! Michelle aka Sunshine!

Your sweet words Crush my soul Your words are toxic I try to pretend They mean nothing to me M “I love you” M “You know you’ll always be mine” “You know you love me” M Yes I know you said you loved me Yes I loved you just never felt your loved returned Your sweet voice now echoes though out my empty soul You’ve taken all the love I had and smashed it into the ground M “You’re my world, I just can’t be in it with you M “Won’t you please stop crying” M “Why don’t you smile any more”? Your sweet words are now pain to my ears Your sweet words are no longer spoken to me Save them for someone new I am alone shivering in shame Hands over my ears wishing I could forget the sweetest words I have ever heard M “I love you”