Usually I can handle things pretty well, but some days are harder than others. This day being one of them.
It was 24 years ago today I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. She had a bit of a rough start, but came home with mommy and family to love and grow up with. Unfortunately her light was extinguished when she was only 3 1/2 months old. A terrible thing SIDS is, which is what claimed her life, oh so long ago - yet the hurt and pain of such a loss still exists to this very day.
So many questions... What would she look like? How smart would she be? What interests would she have had? What talents? and so many more bouncing around in my head. A waste of energy I tell myself, for I'll never know the answers so it's futile even going there. But still, I can't help myself.
R.I.P. Aileen Elizabeth... 6-25-84 to 10-13-84
Mommy Loves You and knows you are watching over me.
With all that is crammed in my brain, being alone without the support of my best friend, my husband and not even being able to speak to him today has put me in a funk. I know he's ok, cause he is on line and on Fubar and sent me a few quick lines in my shoutbox but I need more. I don't ask for much - just some comfort and a shoulder to cry on. Oh well... enough of my pity party. Life goes on and is for the living. Thanks for letting me express myself.
R.I.P. Aileen Elizabeth... 6-25-84 to 10-13-84
Mommy Loves You and knows you are watching over me.
With all that is crammed in my brain, being alone without the support of my best friend, my husband and not even being able to speak to him today has put me in a funk. I know he's ok, cause he is on line and on Fubar and sent me a few quick lines in my shoutbox but I need more. I don't ask for much - just some comfort and a shoulder to cry on. Oh well... enough of my pity party. Life goes on and is for the living. Thanks for letting me express myself.
