All of my demons come out in the dark, no matter how hard I try I miss my mark. Sitting there not being able to sleep, thinking about my past my demons make me weep. People think im just like all the rest, but everyone I ever met make me look best. Trying to remember all the times although they were bad, when it comes down to it they were all I had. All of the attempts to suppress the demons,nothing is more powerful than my demons. Now it is dark and she is still not here, guess im going to have to face my fear. Nothing good ever came out at night, sometimes it gets better with the coming of the light. When it is so dark I feel like im falling into the abyss, everytime I think about it everything is amiss. Never thought life could feel this way, but until a few hours ago I had a place to stay.Of course this news came to me at night, anything done after dark is never right. I don't know if I can take it anymore, what do I deserve all this for.I know she is sick but so might I, at night sometimes we both wish we would die. It is now 10:33 pm, and there goes my demons again.
