RinaMissCandyProtectedByDragon's blog: "My Blogs"

 

You are my addiction

My perfect poision

The thirst I crave

The bitter sweet taste

That is upon my lips

As night brings a new dawn

Your touch coursing thro my veins

Leaves me longing for more

My heart is defenceless

You are

My curse

My addiction

My perfect poision

 

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.

Take kindly to the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann c.1920

Something I threw together.. It's been a while since I've written.. but here ya go One More Goodbye It's easier to say goodbye then I love you It's easier to shut out my thoughts Then to open my heart to you I wanted so badly To be able to tell you That your my every thought I can't see myself without you You held my heart in your hands But I closed my eyes before the tears could fall I wanted to show you my tears I wanted to let you know all my fears But would you still look at me the same If you knew everything I have been through I've always been good At hiding my emotions Until they get the best of me My words never come out like they should My mind gets cloudy And I always forget what to say When I love you is not said It's makes it so much easier Just to forget and walk away The wounds may never heal But it's something I'm used to I love you, can be the best healing words But it is something unspoken by me No words can descibe the feeling That you once gave to me They are words I am scared to speak Another one of my fears I hide so well So once again I close my eyes Once again it goes unsaid But then again Somethings are better left unsaid Once again, I walk away Just one more goodbye - Rina March 31, 2009

You weren't always the nicest Your were stubborn Hardheaded I get alot of it from you You took me in no questions asked And raised me like your own daughter I put you through hell We were always yelling and fighting Even though the words weren't said As often as we'd both would have liked I knew you loved me I hope you knew I loved you two You have made me the strong woman I am today I couldn't have done it without you I miss you There is so many things I wish I could say All I can do now is press my lips to the sky And hope it carries my words of love to you I know your watching over me And I hope through everything I do I still make you proud That's all I've ever wanted to do But for now I'll press my lips to the sky And let the wind carry my love to you

I wish I could tell you How much you changed my life How much you pulled me through How much you made me who I am I wish I could tell you I love you Just one more time I wish you were here So I could run to you Like I always did When I was scared I wish I could hear you say It's ok, it will get better I wish I could hear your voice Just one more time I wish I could show you How you taught me right from wrong Even if I didn't want to listen How you taught me family comes first Before anything else They will always be number one Not number two You were my rock No matter what I was going through You were always there to make it better Even if I didn't think you did I look back on all the years I would choose to fight with you Instead of seeing that you would give up everything for me I was your little girl and would always be your little girl I wish just one more time I could have that feeling Just one more time

So those of you who know my father passed away March 25, 2008. He fought a hell of battle and in the time I got to spend with him I was able to make up for some of the time, I got to hear him say I love, even tho I always knew he did. I love him more than I ever told him and I just hope he realized that. I got to take care of him for a couple months before he passed and I cheished every second and will never forget him. He was the best father I could ever ask for. I will miss him forever, but I know he’s watching over me up there making sure I stay in line. I love you dad and never forget all you have done for me. The Strongest Man I’ll Ever Know My Father Never showed pain Never showed weakness To me he was made of steel Pain and weakness Was something he couldn’t feel The strongest man I’ll ever know He could never be hurt I always thought He would live forever The fights we’d have The painful words we’d exchange I never thought things between us Would ever change Everything about our relationship Would always remain the same Than thats when the news came One word can destroy lives Cancer Thats what the said No way Not my father This can’t be real This has to be a lie The man who I thought Was made of steel The man who raised me How could I be so blind I never thought for one moment That he wouldn’t be here anymore The thought never crossed my mind My biggest regret is not realizing His love I felt when I was a child Never changed I pushed He pulled But no matter what We always found our way through Now one of my biggest fears Losing the man I thought was made of steel I wish I could take back all the years I wish I could erase the pain In the time he has left As hard as it may be I have to show him He means the world to me No matter what happens To me My father will always be The strongest man I’ll ever know I Love You After all the fighting After all the tears Is it to late now After all these years To tell you How much I love you Now that I am grown And have started a life of my own And that bond That we once shared Is now gone Will it still mean as much As when I was a child I know we’ve been distant For far to long But what can you say After all these years When we would take More time to fight And push each other away Sometimes the silence Is what makes you think the most About the times you were there The times I choose to forget And only to remember the times That you weren’t Is it to late now After all these years To tell you How much I love you And always will.