Delete this profileI cantbe botheredto d...'s blog: "my blog has a first name..it's B-L-O-G!!"

I'm going to warn you this will be a venting /pissy/non-happy type of blog. But it's blog or I go off on someone and I might kill them.. So I blog... I have housemates..ok more I have a very killer cool bandmate/best friend who allows me and the rest of the band to live at her place along with her 2kids her mate and Kin(i've lost count of all of them). So they've had alot of stress going on. They've both been on edge & needing a break. So they have the chance to go on a mini holiday from today-sunday morning.It took all I could do to talk them into it & convince them that Gypsy N I ,CC& Rikk-I could take care of the 2 kids and we didn't mind at all. (It gives me n Gypsy a chance to rehurse for when our child is born in 9 months). Sooo they're ready to go n some....people stop by. This is where I get pissy. They saw the bags n the fact that it was clearly just the 2 going and they proceeded to make them feel guilty! Now what that fucking fuck? WHAT? Parents aren't allowed downtime to recharge n refreash? What the fuck? And when they lernt I was taking care of the kids with Gypsy n the rest..well I take exception to being told I cannot care for children. I adore the Bella n Tman as if they were mine. I'd die b4 I allowed them to come to any harm. D& Rave trust me. THAT should speek volums for me. But NOOOOOOOOO! They were made to feel guilty. So much so they damn near didn't go. It took some fast talking from Gypsy and a sweet outburst of"MA DA u go bi bi! Me toto b k. pipi goos" from the fair wee bella(Which in Bella talk was"ma& da you go on.me &t man will be ok.Perri is good")to get them to go. So why am I pissy? Welll other then the fact I was questioned on how i'd care for the kids...I feel it took brass balls to make D n Rave feel guilty and like they were bad parents just due to them needing a little get away. I got a fucking news flash for y'all!! Parents are people too! They need a get away every now and then tooo. And D n Rave are the most remarkable parents I've seen in a long damn time! Much much better then mine ever were... So i'm not trying to defuse myself so the kids don't feel the anger and think they did something. Bella would cry n go "me bad" and she's NOT bad at all. Poor little sweetheart. She just feels the feelings of those around her so deep. And Rave feels she has remembered being tossed in a trash bin.(How she came to be adopted by D n Rave).That's another thing I get pissy over. How anyone could toss a baby away. I am glad D n Rave found there way to Bella. None could love her more. But what kind of monster does that? Tosses a baby? The mind boggles. Esp when i watch her n Rave and I see the joy bella brings her..well the joy bella brings all of us. the way she healed Rave & D after they lost a child. She's a specal little girl... SEE?? I gush on her! LOL I adore her. Tman too! And to be questioned just burns my "oookies"

Today has been fucked in the 10h degree of fuckdome.Name something that coulda went wrong n it did. My car decided to catch on fire while I was driveing the fucker. It just had to start storming n not put out said fire but drench me as I'm walking to find someplace...any place that my cell well pick up signel to call for help. And I got into it with the lady I'm trying to impress...who also happens to be a flatmate of mine. Now she isn't speaking to me.*sigh* Top it all off with went to rehurse with the band...we go in the warehouse to find all our gere is under water & worst...rave's bass is missing. No,It couldn't be the cheep one. We're talking the one that's worth a great deal of cash. Telling her it's gone was taking my life in my hands esp since she's home from the hospital and moody due to haveing to stay in bed 2 weeks. I did. to my shock she just went"it's good n gone huh?" I went"your to calme" n I was told "ummm is this the bass in question?" and hells bells! the very bass. Seems her Mate had gotten it out for her a few days b4. Fuck! I was relived then al"Heyyy someone tell me these things". But though it all I didn't break a singel object. I didn't shove a singel person into a wall & I was able to keep my cool for the most part. I tell you-- I amaze myself at times. Now if only the rest of our gere coulda been else where. I mean yeah we're covered Rave n Jess N ect have the gere we need at least till we can replace. But fuck me. MY bass had to die...n my bass well..yeah..i'm in mourning.But still! Not a singel broken object or person. I think I showed great controle. Now i'm in search of a strong drink n loud music...

That's right this is the first time i've ever had an on line blog. I'll warn all who read it.It's bound to have anything n everything in it.Just like my notebook of misadventures. Sooooo what to chitty chat about??? Well i've new roommates. I'm living in a gods damn castel no less.It's huge. Has a dungon--fully working bdsm one!!--even! My band's doing well. Even if our lovely singer is in the hospital at the moment.I'm going to attempt to cover for her at tomorrow night's gig. (Rave you gotta get better fast!! No way can I get that crowd as heated up as you can. 'Sides you cook better then D. lol So hurry get better come on home.) Let's seeeeeee what do I have to talk about....hummm...*smiles*....*grins* Ok I give! I'm dieing to say it!!! I've met a simply amazing female.She's a roommate & yeah she's dealing with alot of crap. But then so am I. We don't want no heavy duty - so we're both on the same page. But OMFG! I love hanging with her(blushing yet Gypsy?). In fact.....we went out tonight.( And yes I DO think of it as a real date Gypsy.Just you n me= date! Deal*winks*) We saw a film...umm ok I confess I wasn't actually into the film..do know it was bloody n lots of yells. Honestly I was more into sneeking looks at my lovely date(Ha! got'cha! I was too!) And the convo over drinks after rocked solid. (I know your reading,Gypsy). She's a mindblowing woman.I was intrigged by her life & enchanted by her eyes. Yeah,I did tell her so. Yeah I did then wish I didn't have such a big mouth. But!!! She smiled n didn't slug me so it's all good! And NO b4 any of you smart ass kin of mine start singing "love birds on the fence" We ain't no couple. We just have a good time together.And it's just a happy accident that my lips slipped in landed on hers! =P OOO n she'd be cooming to the gig anyway being a close friend of the singer. Were Rave able too! So shut it!=p LOL Ok so???!!! I'm a bit giddy! It's the rum yup! *winks at Gypsy* Ain't it doll? Guess that'll do me for a first ever first blog!