Last night I had my first dream where I could actually SEE my Grandma! I have drempt of her house and other images of her, but never truly saw her face. That is until last night. I can't really explain the dream except that I felt very warm and comforted. She was still alive and had some sort of tumor, but my family wouldn't pay to have it removed. So, I came up with the money and paid for her surgery myself. The look on her face when she awoke from the anesthesia, is one I will never forget. I got to see her smile again! It was amazing. Awesome. Fantastic!
I guess I didn't realize how much I really do miss her. She never had a tumor in real, just died of a heart attack, peacefully. But, being able to give her the gift of a longer life in my dream, was the best feeling I've had in a long time - asleep, or awake. My Grandma wanted to have her ashes spread out over the ocean, like my Grandpa. She didn't want a funeral or service. We honored her wishes and had a small family gathering about a month after she passed. I never thought it was right though. She was loved by so many people and I'm sure they would have liked to say good-bye.
But, at our gathering, I was able to sing a very special song for her. I didn't write it - I'm not that talented ;) But, I sang it for her while an old friend played the acoustic guitar. Here are the words to the song I sang from a wonderful artist named Carolyn Dawn Johnson:
They gave you a corner room on the fifth floor
The city lights were like candy to a kid in a store
Like a king you'd lay in your bed so state fully
So thankful they gave you a room with scenery
You always were so healthy, so full of life
So seeing you so helpless just didn't seem right
And how you kept your head so high I'll never know
I guess you knew you had a better place to go
Now...
You've got a room with a view
A window to the world
You always had your sights set high
And now that you're gone
Your memory lives on And I see you smiling in my mind
With angels as visitors dropping by
Your room with a view
I'll always miss you
I'll always feel the loss
I have to remind myself that you're better off
I gotta believe even through these tears of mine
Wherever you are there's a sun that always shines
And...
You've got a room with a view
A window to the world
You always had your sights set high
And now that you're gone
Your memory lives on
And I see you smiling in my mind
With angels as visitors dropping by
Your room with a view
With angels as visitors dropping by
Your room with a view
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