What's the three Js? That's not the question. The question is who are my 3 Js. They are 3 women, 3 women I fell for. Why am I putting this on myspace? I just don't know. Those of you who really know me will know who they are.
Jay #1: I met her 13 years ago, on Feb. 11, 1994. She is a good girl that i just couldn't trust. I just don't know what to say about her. All I can say is that, I'm not with her today is because I've failed to prove that I'm not the person that I use to be. It's my fault. I put her though hell. I want her to know that I'm sorry, and that I love her and always will. I just rather never deal with her again.(not ready for a relationship but 2 weeks after, you're in one)
Jay #2: I met her a little more then 4 years ago in Dec. 2002. She is also a good girl that won't trust me. I messed up on her also. I should have treated her like the queen she is. I took her for granted and lost another good woman. I'm not with her today because I've failed to show her the person that I am. If she knew we would be together now.(I think) Her biggest problem is that she has no mind of her own. She will never read this but if so, I would want her to know that she will always be in my heart but again I must let her go and move on. I don't ever see us together again.(have no time for a relationship but 2 weeks after, you're in one)
Jay #3: I met her, well I'll just tell you that I met her this year. She is a great girl that won't give me a chance. And she has good reason not to. Not a single hour of the day goes by that I don't think of her. She is everything I've ever wanted in a wife. She is the only woman that I would like to marry before sex. Never even really thought about it, except one time and that was just about going down on her.(cause she looked that yummy) Everyone tells me to try, that I never know, my heart tells me to try, but my mind says no, don't go there. I'm affraid that I might lose her if I do. I'm going to wait for the time to be right. Maybe the time will never come. I'm not with her now cause the course of the past do not allow us to be together. She knows how I feel about her, but she has the respect to not treat me any different from before she found out. She has done things that really hurt me in the past, btu she don't know. And she didn't do them to hurt me. Shit every time I have to say good bye it hurts.(phone or in person, lol) I'm sure she will read this, so if you do, NO question. You know who you are and no one else does. I love you Jay #3. (If things ever change with your situation and you tell me that you're not ready or have no time to be in a relationship, I'll kill you. lol)
Now, why the hell did I write this? It beats the sh*t out of me, your guess is as good as mine.
