I am a friend to so many ppl. But yet I often feel as if I have no friends. Why is that? What is a friend? Are you really my friend?
How many times have you gone out of your way to see me in the last six months? Have you ever told me that you love me?(I love my friends) I have different emotions every day I wake up. Sometimes I feel like a peice of shit(like this world is too good for me. Other times I feel like I'm to good for this world and the people in it. Why I'm saying this I just don't know, I havn't got a clue. Back to friends. A friend of mine came all the way from the Bronx to see me yesterday. I had so much fun. We played handball, then went back to the crib and played chess, (sorry about the 15 games of ass whipping I gave you). So what's my point in bringing this up? I just don't know. I just don't know about a lot of things anymore these days, like who are my friends and who just call themselves my friend. I been thinking about that a lot. I guess I'm just a person that feel all alone, and that sucks. I want to get married one day but all I want now is friends. I'm your friend, why can't you be mine. Yes, I know, this should be in my blogs. It will be soon. To all my friends, thanks for being my friend. And to all my so call friends, are you really my friend? Yes, I know that too. You have a life to live, you have a kid or kids, you go to school, you work, you have a man, you have a girl, or who may have other responsibilities, but I have a life too(somewhat). Make time for me as I will for you, or just don't call yourself my friend, just call me your friend. Please don't question me on this, I will not answer. If it don't apply let it fly. Love you all.
Thanks for a great yesterday Izzy. I love you, little Bro.
