Hellfirehound WISE UK Friends's blog: "Moving On"

So, here we are again... Yes , it's Valentines Day! All over the world, people are buying supermarket flowers, cheap fizz and artery clogging chocolates to give to their loved one. For some reason, im not really bothered about Valentines day, its never seemed to be that important to me. Even when I was with someone, it just seemed to be another excuse to squeeze a few quid out of you. Why just limit romantic gestures to just one day? Make sure you tell the one you love everyday how much you love them. Spread the love and make someone feel special... ...even if it's only for one day....

well, im still here.... Not that i mean im going anywhere, or going to do something stupid...ach you know what i mean... Well i double checked with my solicitor yesterday about my new found criminal record, and it turns out that, as a result of my assault charge, i'll be hard pressed to find a holiday camp that'll employ me as an entertainer, so in effect i've screwed up another of my dreams. But hey, theres always Mcdonalds again. Oh how I long to come home every night smelling like a Whopper with cheese. Bugger, thats Burger King... As you can probably tell, the sense of humour is still there, but eeking its way slowly back into my regular programming. I'm finding it easier to smile now although ive got fuck all to smile about. Im finding things funny now, but life is still tough as a woman beater. I dont expect any sympathy, mainly because I think I spelled it wrong...

its now been 8 days since I crushed my marriage and things are slowly becoming bearable once again. Family and friends are on hand with sympathy and try to take my mind off things, and God bless em for trying. Not much to report as yet, but my solicitor is advising me what to do next. Ill no doubt keep you informed...

Well, my marriage is over and once again, I'm back sleeping on the squeeky leather sofa in my mums front room. Things were said and done and misery was experienced by all. So what now? Well it's difficult to say really. How do I know whats going to happen tomorrow? Once again, my psychic abilities have not materialised, so I'm left without answers. The only thing I do know is that I have an appointment with my soilicitor to get my stuff back and get the ball rolling for divorce proceedings. My wife refuses to talk to me and I'm not allowed to get in touch with her, as laid down my bail conditions. If I even attempt to get in touch or approach her, im doing chokey for a few months. Trust me, I aint no jailbird! I've got my passport and laptop so I'm not totally without options...but then again, I dont have many.