I WANT YOU
SHEETS TANGLED, MY BODY DRENCHED IN SWEAT.
BREATH RAGGED, I CAN HEAR MY HEARTBEAT.
I WAKE , THE SWEET DREAM OF YOU STILL FRESH IN MY MIND.
THE PASSION STILL MAKING MY BODY CONVULSE.
I CAN STILL FEEL YOUR HANDS ON MY SKIN.
YOUR TASTE STILL IN MY MOUTH, SALTY, BITTER, SWEET COPPER.
THE MEMORY OF THE FEEL OF YOUR BODY SO EAGER AND READY FOR ME.
MY WRISTS ACHE SO SWEETLY FROM THE BINDS THAT HELD ME.
WHY DO YOU TORTURE ME SO? COMING TO ME ONLY IN MY DREAMS.
I STILL FEEL THE WEIGHT OF YOU ON ME.
THE TINGLE THAT YOUR MOUTH EGNITED IN ME STILL MAKING ME WHIMPER.
I SMELL THE SWEET MUSK OF OUR BODIES ALL AROUND ME.
THE FEEL OF YOUR HAIR AS IS CASCADES DOWN AROUUND MY FACE.
THE MARKS THAT YOUR NAILS HAVE MADE ON ME CANT POSSIBLY BE REAL BUT YET I SEE THEM.
I SEE THE WOUND THAT YOUR FEEDNG HAS LEFT, HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE?
DO YOU SEE MINE? DO YOU WAKE WITH THE SAME MEMORIES THAT I DO?
IS THIS REAL?
WHY CANT I HAVE YOU IN FLESH AND NOT ONLY DREAMS?
DO YOU FEAR WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF WE COME TOGETHER?
I DON'T I EAGERLY ANTICIPATE IT.
THE ENERGY THAT WE COULD CREATE TOGETHER COULD MOVE MOUNTAINS.
FEED ME IN THE FLESH AS I LONG TO FEED YOU.
LET ME SHOW YOU WHAT EROTIC THINGS AND MOMENTS YOU CAN HAVE.
DON'T BE SCARED MY SWEET ONE, I WILL NOT HARM YOU.
I WILL UPHOLD YOU AND BOW IN YOUR HONOR.
I WANT YOU AND I WILL HAVE YOU.
COME TO ME , FEED MY NEEDS AND I WILL BRING YOUR DREAMS TO LIFE.
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Monday July 10, 2006 - 03:46pm (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 4 Comments
I HUNGER, I WANT, I NEED.
A TRICLE OF SWEAT RUNS DOWN MY BREAST, MY BREATH A PANT.
I FEEL YOUR NEED, YOUR PULSE BEATING JUST BELOW THE SKIN.
I HUNGER, I WANT, I NEED.
MY HANDS SLIDE UP YOUR BODY, YOU SHAKE WITH DESIRE.
YOUR HEART POUNDS, THE PULSE QUICKENS.
I SEE IT, I HUNGER, I WANT , I NEED.
MY SKIN TINGLES, MY EYES GLOW.
I REST MY HAND UPON THE BACK OF YOUR NECK, YOU SIGH.
YOU PLEAD WITH ME TO TAKE YOU, TASTE, TO RELEASE YOU.
I FEAR A TASTE WILL NOT QUENCH MY THIRST.
MY BODY BEGS FOR THE RELEASE THAT FEEDING CAN GIVE ME.
MY BREAST TIGHTEN, MY BODY WET WITH NEED.
YOU PLEAD, A WHIMPER ESCAPES YOUR THROAT.
MY HAND GRASPS YOUR HAIR, I PULL EXPOSING YOUR NECK.
YOUR SHAKING MY LOVE, ARE YOU AFRAID?
MY LIPS CARESS YOUR SKIN MY TEETH PRESS GENTLY.
YOUR MOANING MY SWEET TENDER ONE.
I BITE, YOU SCREAM WITH RELEASE.
OR IS THAT MY SCREAM OF PLEASURE.
I HUNGER, I WANT , I NEED.
OH THE SWEET TASTE OF YOU, MY SKIN IS WARM.
YOU HAVE SATISIFIED MY HUNGER, FILLED MY NEED.
BUT I STILL WANT.
OH I WANT, I WANT MORE.
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Wednesday July 5, 2006 - 09:10am (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 3 Comments
Entry for June 27, 2006
Ahhh, Divorce is it not a beautiful thing?
Well I did it , I left him and his cheating ways. Yay
So now what??? I know...I can live my life like i want. Im getting ready to turn 28 and for the first time I am allowed to do what I want when I want..So look out world..The bitch is back! lol.
To my dear friends , Shonda is back and to my enemies, run.
Those that are brave enough, feel free to follow me, be it heaven or hell the ride will knock your socks off.
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Tuesday June 27, 2006 - 08:17am (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 2 Comments
Dont you wish you knew?
Ahhh Valentines day, so does anyone feel like things are more and more commercialized as each holiday passes?
Well any way no use crying over spilled milk eh?
So here is a blog for the day.
You say you love me, should I believe you?
You say you need me, will I believe you?
You say I am the one, how do I know this?
You swore you would never lie to me but you did.
You said you would be true to me but you weren't.
You promised me the moon, you failed to try.
You wispered sweet nothings in my ear, they were lies.
Am I nothing more than a puppet to you?
Am I merely a toy for you to play with then discard?
You say you want me, arent I more than a sex toy?
You say I am the best you ever had, is this a line all the others have heard?
How can I believe anything you say or do now?
Why did you do it? Wasen't I enough?
I never told you no, I never withheld.
I lived to please you, I pampered you at every oppourtunity.
I bared my soul to you and you used me.
They say be careful of a woman scorned, they say she can hurt you in ways that you could never concieve.
THEY WERE RIGHT.
Should I loose the imps of hell upon you? should I invade your dreams turning them into the nightmares you so greatly fear? Should I destroy your puny mind? Shall I show you what true power can unleash?
Or should I just turn and walk away? Leaving you to wallow in the regret of my departure?
Dont you wish you knew?
Sleep well.
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Tuesday February 14, 2006 - 06:49pm (PST) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 1 Comment
Escape
A Gentle breeze plays upon my skin.
I smile, enjoying it's kiss.
The sun so bright, so full of life.
Its gentle touch warms my face.
The sweet smell of the forrest.
The songs made by the earth,so sweet.
The feel of earth beneath my feet.
I live inside cold dark place alone and afraid.
When I escape if only for a moment I cherish theese simple things.
Where I live there are screams in the dark.
There is sadness here, a worn and heavy heart.
The rivers are flowing filled by lonely tears.
The sunlight fails to shine down here.
The only light is cold and dim,the shadows long.
The dreams of sweet springtime fade so quick.
The happiness I feel soon fades, replaced by darkness.
The laughter is not sweet, but mocking and cold.
The music a noisy din.
The floor is cold here, the walls barren and bleak.
The smell of despair, the only flower that grows.
The roses bleed,the earth is sand.
Why cant I escape this place, this wasteland.
The home I live in so stark and cold..
This place is limbo.
This place is my soul.
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Friday January 6, 2006 - 08:39pm (PST) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 0 Comments
My passion My Love
I felt you touch me today.
I shivered as your hand ran down my spine.
My breath becoming ragged as your arms encircled me.
My body shaking with the firey passion you Ignite in me.
Your smell, so clean, musky, masculine.
I want you, take me, touch me, love me.
Taste me, let me taste you.
I feel your lips tracing every tingling inch of me.
I run my hands over your strong back, you sigh.
I feel the passion as our lips meet.
I feel your need for me, I know you feel mine.
I surrender my body,mind,and soul to you, use me well.
Let me devour your soul.
Let me show you what erotic moments you and I will share.
I feel you shiver with pleasure as you enter me, we share the knowledge that this is utopia.
We were meant to be here together now and forever.
Oh god...Dont let this feeling end.
I would follow you into the arms of heaven or the pits of hell.
This pleasure is so perfect, i feel my soul awakening.
I have found my salvation in you.
Where have you been.
Oh god NO... Please No...This cant be just a dream...
I was so happy. When will I stop dreaming of you and find you in the flesh and not just in my dreams...
PLease help me find you my love...
Untill I do I will be locked in this limbo forever.
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Thursday December 29, 2005 - 09:38pm (PST) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 0 Comments
So Tired
Im so tired of being me, suppresed by all my fears. I cry. who will wipe away all of my tears. my wounds wont seem to heal. im bound by chains that wont break. A tremor passes through my chest, my hands start to quake. I try so hard to be happy. the sadness emerges. haunted cant find what keeps me here. I am so hollow inside. I wont let you hold me down.Hard to breathe. I feel you pulling me down.I try to kill the pain, but only bring more. am I too lost to be saved? I have been lost for so long, do you remember me? Will you look for me in this darkness? can you bring to me salvation? My soul cries, my heart bleeds. So very tired of being me. I am drowning in my tears. I linger in the shadows of my haunted reality. I am lost inside my self. is this rampant chaos my only reality? I'd give up everything to find it...my salvation.This darkness is taking over me. So many things inside, they battle. The good the evil they are trying to take over me. Wich one will win? So very tired of being me... When will I sleep? Cant I be fixed? I am so broken...
