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Today I lost my sweet lil man. I send him now into gods hand. His sweet little face full of life. For now it will remain gone from my sight. His cold wet nose, His laughing eyes. The smells he produced brought tears to my eyes. His struggle was hard, so full of pain. I tried all that I could to make him better again. Today my heart broke into tiny shreds. As I kissed him and petted his unmoving head. So may God and angels hold him now Pet him, love him, feed him well Untill mommy sees him again.

I WANT YOU SHEETS TANGLED, MY BODY DRENCHED IN SWEAT. BREATH RAGGED, I CAN HEAR MY HEARTBEAT. I WAKE , THE SWEET DREAM OF YOU STILL FRESH IN MY MIND. THE PASSION STILL MAKING MY BODY CONVULSE. I CAN STILL FEEL YOUR HANDS ON MY SKIN. YOUR TASTE STILL IN MY MOUTH, SALTY, BITTER, SWEET COPPER. THE MEMORY OF THE FEEL OF YOUR BODY SO EAGER AND READY FOR ME. MY WRISTS ACHE SO SWEETLY FROM THE BINDS THAT HELD ME. WHY DO YOU TORTURE ME SO? COMING TO ME ONLY IN MY DREAMS. I STILL FEEL THE WEIGHT OF YOU ON ME. THE TINGLE THAT YOUR MOUTH EGNITED IN ME STILL MAKING ME WHIMPER. I SMELL THE SWEET MUSK OF OUR BODIES ALL AROUND ME. THE FEEL OF YOUR HAIR AS IS CASCADES DOWN AROUUND MY FACE. THE MARKS THAT YOUR NAILS HAVE MADE ON ME CANT POSSIBLY BE REAL BUT YET I SEE THEM. I SEE THE WOUND THAT YOUR FEEDNG HAS LEFT, HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE? DO YOU SEE MINE? DO YOU WAKE WITH THE SAME MEMORIES THAT I DO? IS THIS REAL? WHY CANT I HAVE YOU IN FLESH AND NOT ONLY DREAMS? DO YOU FEAR WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF WE COME TOGETHER? I DON'T I EAGERLY ANTICIPATE IT. THE ENERGY THAT WE COULD CREATE TOGETHER COULD MOVE MOUNTAINS. FEED ME IN THE FLESH AS I LONG TO FEED YOU. LET ME SHOW YOU WHAT EROTIC THINGS AND MOMENTS YOU CAN HAVE. DON'T BE SCARED MY SWEET ONE, I WILL NOT HARM YOU. I WILL UPHOLD YOU AND BOW IN YOUR HONOR. I WANT YOU AND I WILL HAVE YOU. COME TO ME , FEED MY NEEDS AND I WILL BRING YOUR DREAMS TO LIFE. Tags: | Edit Tags Monday July 10, 2006 - 03:46pm (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 4 Comments I HUNGER, I WANT, I NEED. A TRICLE OF SWEAT RUNS DOWN MY BREAST, MY BREATH A PANT. I FEEL YOUR NEED, YOUR PULSE BEATING JUST BELOW THE SKIN. I HUNGER, I WANT, I NEED. MY HANDS SLIDE UP YOUR BODY, YOU SHAKE WITH DESIRE. YOUR HEART POUNDS, THE PULSE QUICKENS. I SEE IT, I HUNGER, I WANT , I NEED. MY SKIN TINGLES, MY EYES GLOW. I REST MY HAND UPON THE BACK OF YOUR NECK, YOU SIGH. YOU PLEAD WITH ME TO TAKE YOU, TASTE, TO RELEASE YOU. I FEAR A TASTE WILL NOT QUENCH MY THIRST. MY BODY BEGS FOR THE RELEASE THAT FEEDING CAN GIVE ME. MY BREAST TIGHTEN, MY BODY WET WITH NEED. YOU PLEAD, A WHIMPER ESCAPES YOUR THROAT. MY HAND GRASPS YOUR HAIR, I PULL EXPOSING YOUR NECK. YOUR SHAKING MY LOVE, ARE YOU AFRAID? MY LIPS CARESS YOUR SKIN MY TEETH PRESS GENTLY. YOUR MOANING MY SWEET TENDER ONE. I BITE, YOU SCREAM WITH RELEASE. OR IS THAT MY SCREAM OF PLEASURE. I HUNGER, I WANT , I NEED. OH THE SWEET TASTE OF YOU, MY SKIN IS WARM. YOU HAVE SATISIFIED MY HUNGER, FILLED MY NEED. BUT I STILL WANT. OH I WANT, I WANT MORE. Tags: | Edit Tags Wednesday July 5, 2006 - 09:10am (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 3 Comments Entry for June 27, 2006 Ahhh, Divorce is it not a beautiful thing? Well I did it , I left him and his cheating ways. Yay So now what??? I know...I can live my life like i want. Im getting ready to turn 28 and for the first time I am allowed to do what I want when I want..So look out world..The bitch is back! lol. To my dear friends , Shonda is back and to my enemies, run. Those that are brave enough, feel free to follow me, be it heaven or hell the ride will knock your socks off. Tags: | Edit Tags Tuesday June 27, 2006 - 08:17am (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 2 Comments Dont you wish you knew? Ahhh Valentines day, so does anyone feel like things are more and more commercialized as each holiday passes? Well any way no use crying over spilled milk eh? So here is a blog for the day. You say you love me, should I believe you? You say you need me, will I believe you? You say I am the one, how do I know this? You swore you would never lie to me but you did. You said you would be true to me but you weren't. You promised me the moon, you failed to try. You wispered sweet nothings in my ear, they were lies. Am I nothing more than a puppet to you? Am I merely a toy for you to play with then discard? You say you want me, arent I more than a sex toy? You say I am the best you ever had, is this a line all the others have heard? How can I believe anything you say or do now? Why did you do it? Wasen't I enough? I never told you no, I never withheld. I lived to please you, I pampered you at every oppourtunity. I bared my soul to you and you used me. They say be careful of a woman scorned, they say she can hurt you in ways that you could never concieve. THEY WERE RIGHT. Should I loose the imps of hell upon you? should I invade your dreams turning them into the nightmares you so greatly fear? Should I destroy your puny mind? Shall I show you what true power can unleash? Or should I just turn and walk away? Leaving you to wallow in the regret of my departure? Dont you wish you knew? Sleep well. Tags: | Edit Tags Tuesday February 14, 2006 - 06:49pm (PST) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 1 Comment Escape A Gentle breeze plays upon my skin. I smile, enjoying it's kiss. The sun so bright, so full of life. Its gentle touch warms my face. The sweet smell of the forrest. The songs made by the earth,so sweet. The feel of earth beneath my feet. I live inside cold dark place alone and afraid. When I escape if only for a moment I cherish theese simple things. Where I live there are screams in the dark. There is sadness here, a worn and heavy heart. The rivers are flowing filled by lonely tears. The sunlight fails to shine down here. The only light is cold and dim,the shadows long. The dreams of sweet springtime fade so quick. The happiness I feel soon fades, replaced by darkness. The laughter is not sweet, but mocking and cold. The music a noisy din. The floor is cold here, the walls barren and bleak. The smell of despair, the only flower that grows. The roses bleed,the earth is sand. Why cant I escape this place, this wasteland. The home I live in so stark and cold.. This place is limbo. This place is my soul. Tags: | Edit Tags Friday January 6, 2006 - 08:39pm (PST) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 0 Comments My passion My Love I felt you touch me today. I shivered as your hand ran down my spine. My breath becoming ragged as your arms encircled me. My body shaking with the firey passion you Ignite in me. Your smell, so clean, musky, masculine. I want you, take me, touch me, love me. Taste me, let me taste you. I feel your lips tracing every tingling inch of me. I run my hands over your strong back, you sigh. I feel the passion as our lips meet. I feel your need for me, I know you feel mine. I surrender my body,mind,and soul to you, use me well. Let me devour your soul. Let me show you what erotic moments you and I will share. I feel you shiver with pleasure as you enter me, we share the knowledge that this is utopia. We were meant to be here together now and forever. Oh god...Dont let this feeling end. I would follow you into the arms of heaven or the pits of hell. This pleasure is so perfect, i feel my soul awakening. I have found my salvation in you. Where have you been. Oh god NO... Please No...This cant be just a dream... I was so happy. When will I stop dreaming of you and find you in the flesh and not just in my dreams... PLease help me find you my love... Untill I do I will be locked in this limbo forever. Tags: | Edit Tags Thursday December 29, 2005 - 09:38pm (PST) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 0 Comments So Tired Im so tired of being me, suppresed by all my fears. I cry. who will wipe away all of my tears. my wounds wont seem to heal. im bound by chains that wont break. A tremor passes through my chest, my hands start to quake. I try so hard to be happy. the sadness emerges. haunted cant find what keeps me here. I am so hollow inside. I wont let you hold me down.Hard to breathe. I feel you pulling me down.I try to kill the pain, but only bring more. am I too lost to be saved? I have been lost for so long, do you remember me? Will you look for me in this darkness? can you bring to me salvation? My soul cries, my heart bleeds. So very tired of being me. I am drowning in my tears. I linger in the shadows of my haunted reality. I am lost inside my self. is this rampant chaos my only reality? I'd give up everything to find it...my salvation.This darkness is taking over me. So many things inside, they battle. The good the evil they are trying to take over me. Wich one will win? So very tired of being me... When will I sleep? Cant I be fixed? I am so broken...

THE SORCERESS I FEEL YOU STANDING THERE IN THE SHADOWS YOUR KEEN SENSES BROUGHT YOU TO ME, WHY? WHY ARE YOU SO INTRESTED IN ME? I AM NOT A CREATURE LIKE YOU,I AM MERELY MORTAL DOES IT BOTHER YOU THAT I SENSE YOUR NEARNESS? MY LACK OF FEAR CONFUSE YOU? WHY SHOULD I FEAR YOU, YOU DO NOT WISH ME HARM. I SENSE THAT YOU WISH TO FEED MORE THAN ONE HUNGER FROM ME WICH IS MORE POWERFUL, THE DARK HUNGER OR THE HUNGER OF YOUR COOL FLESH? I SMELL THE MUSK OF YOUR PASSION, FEEL THE HEAT OF YOUR DESIRES. WONT YOU COME TO ME, LET ME SEE YOU, LET ME STAUNCH YOUR HUNGERS. CAN YOU SMELL MY DESIRE? WOULD YOU SHY FROM MY TOUCH? I SHOULD FEAR YOU SHOULD I NOT? I DON'T ALL I WANT IS TO TASTE YOUR FLESH,SAMPLE YOUR KISS. LET ME FEED MY RAVENOUS APPETITE UPON YOU, I WILL LET YOU TAST OF MY ESSENCE. MY LIFE ENERGY IS YOURS SHOULD YOU FIND THE COURAGE ONLY TO ASK. TOUCH ME DARK PRINCE, LET ME SHARE THE SUNLIGHT WITH YOU THROUGH MY SWEET YOUNG FLESH. TAST THE MORNING DEW UPON MY TONGUE. AHHH, THERE YOU ARE. COME TO ME. FEAR NOT I TRUST YOU MY SECRET GUARDIAN. FLESH COLD AS ALABASTER, EYES SHINING WITH HELLISH FIRES. LET ME WARM YOU, HERE TASTE OF ME DREAM MY DREAMS. SWEET PAIIN AND PLEASURE MIXED SO RIGHT, NOW IT IS MY TURN TO FEED. I MUST FEED THIS ARDEUR OF PASSION BEFORE IT CONSUMES ME. NO MERE MAN CAN HANDLE MY APPETITES, CAN YOU? LAY UPON THE SWEET COOL EARTH, FEEL MY POWER ARISE TO YOU. I PLAY GENTLY WITHIN YOUR FLESH, I WILL YOUR BODY TO SUBMIT. YES, YES THAT IS WHAT I WANT.. ALL OF YOU. LET ME TAKE YOU INTO THE LIGHT OF HEAVEN AS WE PLAY IN THE FIRES OF HELL. SUCH EMOTION YOU DID NOT KNOW YOU FELT. SUCH PASSION I KEPT IN CHECK. NOW WE ARE FREE, FREE TO ROAM THE EARTH TOGETHER. NOW WE CAN BOTH LIVE OUR DARKEST DREAM. I WILL LOVE YOU AS NO OTHER, ALL I ASK IN RETURN IS YOUR LOVE. FOREVER YOURS MY DARK BEAUTIFUL ANGEL THE SORCERESS. USE ME AS YOU WISH SOFT MOSS BENEATH MY FEET, SHADOWS COOL UPON MY SKIN, THE MUSIC OF MY FELLOW NIGHT CREATURES, A SCENT CAUGHT UPON THE SOFT BREEZE, IT TEASES MY MIND IT ENCAPSULATES MY SENSES, MOUTH WATERING,SKIN TINGLING. I FEEL MY FEAST NEARING, I HEAR THE TIMID STEPS. HIDING IN MY SHADOWS I WATCH YOUR APROACH, YOUR SKIN GLOWS SOFTLY IN THE MOONLIGHT, SO BEAUTIFUL, SO EROTIC ARE YOUR MOVEMENTS. YOU SENSE DANGER, IS IT ME YOUR FEARING OR THE CREATURES STALKING YOU? I SEE THEM WITH EYES YOU DONT YET POSESS, THEY SEE ME, THEY WONT BE TENDER AS I WILL. THEY WANT ONLY TO USE YOU, THEY OFFER NO LOVE. FEAR NOT MY SWEET ONE I WILL PROTECT YOU. I STAND OPENING UP MY WINGS OF SHADOW AND SILK. DO NOT SCREAM MY LOVE I WILL TAKE YOU AWAY FROM THIS DANGER. LET ME HOLD YOU GENTLY NOW, I WILL NOT LET YOU FALL. YES MY LOVE YOU ARE SAFE IN MY ARMS, REST NOW. WE LIGHT UPON THE EARTH AS GENTLY A FEATHER. THERE MY LOVE, IF YOU WISH YOU ARE FREE TO GO. WHY DONT YOU RUN? WHY DO YOU WISH TO REMAIN AND TOUCH ME SO? DO YOU NOT REALIZE THAT TO STAY IS TO BECOME MINE ALWAYS? YES, I WILL LET YOU TOUCH ME, BUT MY PASSION IS THAT OF THE ETERNAL. THERE IS NO NEED TO PLEAD, I AM THE ONE IN AWE OF BEAUTY SUCH AS YOURS. COME TO ME AND LET ME TASTE YOU, AHH, SO SWEET SO PURE, IF I DO NOT STOP YOU WILL NOT SURVIVE. I WILL BRING YOU OVER, ARE YOU READY? THERE IS NO MORE PAIN HERE, EXCEPT PAIN OF THE HEART. HERE, TASTE OF ME AND RECIEVE MY DARKEST OF GIFTS. THIS WILL ONLY HURT A MOMENT. NOW AWAKEN DARK PRINCE AND LOOK THROUGH EYES SUCH AS YOU HAVE NEVER KNOWN. FEEL SUCH THINGS AS YOU HAVE NEVER FELT. NOW COME TO ME AND KNOW PASSION AS NO MORTAL CAN. YES MY LOVE THIS IS REAL, DO YOU NOT FEEL MY BODY. CAN YOU NOT FEEL MY HANDS AS THEY PLAY UPON YOUR PALE FLESH? LAY BACK AND LET ME PLEASURE YOU, YES, OH YES THIS IS REAL. I AM YOURS, USE ME AS YOU WISH. Come and Join me My palms sweaty, my skin so hot. I feel like a ticking bomb, ready to explode. I walk along a path of shadow and damp earth. I find a sweet smelling place and lie upon the cool grass. The sweet caress of the ground, so erotic upon my bare skin. Fingers trailing over my body, I touch so gently. Hands finding that sweet spot of pleasure. I hear a branch snap, are you near? Do you watch as I continue my exploration of flesh? Do you shudder as I moan? I sense your nearness, I enjoy the knowledge. Why dont you join me, I wont bite...Yet Let me lay you down on the sweet damp earth. I want to slide my hands all over your flesh. Let my hair cover your face as I look down at you. Let my flesh consume you, let me see your shudders as I take you inside. Touch my hardened breast as they move above you. Rake your nails down my back. Let me lick the sweet sweat from your brow. Taste of my throat, I will share my power with you. Let me share yours. Let us colapse together, as the passion consumes us. Sleep sweetly now my new dark prince. I will awaken you when the shadows return. Can You Feel It CAN YOU FEEL IT? MY NEED, MY DESIRE, MY LUST. SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT IT WILL OVERWHELM IT, THIS NEED. I CRAVE THE SWEET EROTICISM THAT A TOUCH CAN GIVE ME. I NEED THE RELEASE THAT ONLY FEEDING THIS FLAME CAN GIVE ME. MY BODY ACHES WITH THE NEED FOR SWEET FEEDING. THE FEEL OF LIPS AS THEY BRUSH OVER MY DAMP SKIN. THE FEEL OF HANDS AS THEY WRAP IN MY HAIR. THE SWEET AND COPPERY TASTE OF BLOOD AS I DRINK OF YOU. HOLD ME NOT WITH GENTLE HANDS, BUT HANDS THAT GLOW WITH POWER. TASTE OF ME WITH TEETH THAT SHINE WITH MY BLOOD. LET US BLEND OUR ENERGIES SO THAT THE GLOW SHALL MAKE EVEN THE STARS ENVIOUS. RELEASE ME FROM THE PRISION OF MY SKIN. QUIET THE BEAST OF MY MIND. CAN YOU FEEL IT? THE PROMISE OF MY BODY. DO YOU TIGHTEN WITH DESIRE? LET ME TAKE YOU ON A JOURNEY TO A WORLD OF PLEASURE. I KNOW WHAT YOUR CRAVING, WHAT YOU WANT. LET ME RELEASE YOU, LET ME FEED YOUR SOUL. LET ME TASTE OF YOUR FLESH. CAN YOU FEEL IT? MY HANDS, MY LIPS AS THEY TRACE EVERY EAGER INCH OF YOU. LET ME BIND YOU, LET ME HOLD YOU DOWN AND FEED OF YOU. I CAN SEE IT, YOUR EYES AGLOW WITH PLEASURE. YOUR TREMBLING FLESH AS I POSSESS YOU. FEAR NOT MY TENDER ONE, I WILL NOT HARM YOU. COME TO ME, LOOK INTO MY EYES AND FEEL MY POWER. LET ME DANCE INSIDE YOUR MIND. YOU WILL NOT REGRET WHAT I HAVE TO SHOW YOU. YOU WILL COVET IT MY SWEET TENDER MORSEL. CAN YOU FEEL IT? I'M ALREADY INSIDE YOUR MIND.

Dark one I CAN FEEL YOUR ESSENCE, YOUR HUNGER CARESSES MY SKIN. I CAN FEEL YOUR YEARNING, IT BEGINS TO FILL ME. MY STILETTOS, THE GENTLE SCRATCH OF THEM ON MY STONE PERCH. LIKE A LOVERS WHISPER IT SEDUCES ME, MY BODY BEGINNING TO TINGLE. BONDS, RESTRICTING ME, RESTRAINING ME..LIBERATING ME. THE SOUND OF MY LEATHERY WINGS AS THEY STRETCH OUT BEHIND ME. THE INTOXICATING SMELLS OF FLESH, BLOOD, LUST CALLING TO ME. WICH HUNGER SHALL I APPEASE FIRST..THIS YEARNING BECOMING A ACHING NEED? MY DARK SOUL SO HUNGRY FOR YOU.. WHY DO YOU HIDE IT? THIS DESIRE THIS NEED, FROM ME? I WOULD WRAP YOU IN MY SENSUAL EMBRACE AND LET YOUR MOANS OF PLEASURE BE HEARD BY HEAVEN AND HELL AS ONE. I WOULD NOT HURT YOU DARK ONE, FOR YOUR MY ONE AND ONLY.. I HAVE WAITED SO LONG MANY LIVES AGO I HAD YOU, NOW I FIND YOU AGAIN, ONLY TO FEEL YOU DANCE AWAY FROM ME IN ETERNAL SHADOW. YOU GIVE SO FREELY TO OTHERS, YET YOUR ALWAYS YEARNING FOR MORE. DON'T YOU FEEL YOUR INNER BEAST, BEING HELD BY BONDS, RESTRAINED, CHAINED... I BEG YOU MY LOVE, LET LOOSE YOUR BEAST AND LET YOUR BONDS THAT ONCE HELD LIBERATE... I SHALL NEVER TAME YOUR BEAST, NO MY LOVE..I SHALL COVET IT. LET MY ANCIENT SOUL TEACH YOU, LET MY ETERNAL HUNGER APPEASE YOU. YES...I KNOW WICH HUNGER I FEED TONIGHT... HOLD FAST MY LOVE...HEAR THAT SILKEN SOUND, THE COOL BREEZE AS IT SWIRLS AROUND..LOOK...I AM HERE.. I STAND BEFORE YOU, A CREATURE OF DARKNESS AND SHADOW..ANCIENT POWERS RUNNING THROUGH ME..INVINCIBLE TO MOST... HUMBLED BY YOUR GAZE..WEAK AS A NEWBORN BABE IN YOUR EMBRACE. YOUR ESSENCE FILLING ME, YOUR HUNGER DROWN ME... COME TO ME..FEAR NOT..YOUR MY DARK ONE..YOU MY LORD SHALL KNOW MORE POWER THAN THE WORLD HAS EVER KNOWN. I KNEEL AT YOUR BEAUTEOUS FEET, I AM YOUR SLAVE.YOUR LOVE YOUR GUARDIAN. PLEASE DO NOT WAIT ANY LONGER MY LOVE..FOR WITHOUT YOU..I AM LOST AND EMPTY