AngelicDarkness's blog: "miscellaneous"

if you could look in to tomorrow and you saw me die would you take me in your arms in the throws of passion? would time be wasted with words that meant nothing? would you tell me everything in your heart ? would you die with me? would you carry on like i never existed? the future never seen.. the past regrets on actions never taken.. time well spent or a moment lost on nothing? words ,thoughts confusion misconception sweet passage of time darkness welling do you crave it or will it consume you?.....

darkness swallows light cannot touch pain envelopes feelings uncaring hate filled too cold and unyielding shattered torn and broken tossed to the side forevermore tattered and torn screaming screams no one hears crying tears no one sees darkness swallows nothing except me

ripped from my chest i feed the animals a heart i no longer need i wish for it to cease to beat i watch it pulse in my hands blood flowing dripping i feel like i have wings that have been ripped from the joints open wounds never to heal pain rages through me tears that never cease in their endless flow and endless sleep is wish for pain dwells where there should never have been emotion stupidity floods my mind i scream why me what was wrong with me that i receive the vulnerable heart all things squashed with a faltering glimmer of a hope hope is a deceiving creature of the night it stalks and lurks kills things you are ignorant enough to believe in ever swelling darkness never good enough never loved always loving which cannot be had hatred swells for oneself an end must come blood flow to cease a still ever beating heart grasped in and clinched fist grip tightening lungs gasping for air stupidity increases fates cruel games bring light then shatter it with a swinging blow never ending defeat never loved always consuming hate a pill hard to swallow poisoning me wishing for death hating the knowledge of the marrow the fear of the knowledge of things to come a path nears its end wishing hoping for an end to come knowing fate has no such plans self hate flows a path with no end love is overrated and hate is ever consuming

The heart is a deceiving thing Leads you to put people on a pedestal You think you have a grip on it But it comes up and smacks you in the face Clipping feathers Breaking wings Shattering even the purest of dreams Causes hate filled words to flow Halos crash to the ground Angels cry Hearts wither and die Feet cross egg shells No words known to say Imperfection rears its head Noticeable Frightening Thrashing dreams Anger flows Depression looms Playtime is over No more attention paid to those who don't want it Life has to mean more than hurt Angry words Calmly focused No more tears No more pain Darkness dwells Light ceases Broken Plucked Featherless Open wounds need no salt Don't add to the hurt I no longer care Love is evil Pain is pure Love is worthless Pain is eternal Pain is real I will let the pain flow from me like blood down a drain I NO LONGER CARE You have broken me beyond repair

the tears fall like rain into a river that swells from pain blood rushes with hurt that burns to the touch words can not heal this only a touch the thought consumes the pain intercedes no opening in sight all darkness no light things the flow of time cant heal one kiss one touch that is all that can change it love deeper than the ocean isn't deep enough distance is no help the physical being that is you beckons to me i hurt for your pain i want to relieve it to let you have some release to vent it all out take me im yours release your pain unto me i will swallow it remove it not enough hours in the day to take away your hurt not enough water to put out the flames left behind from it release it unto me let me love you the way you deserve hate me for it if you will nothing matters until u are whole your heart put back together from tattered parts torn threads sheered from your chest ripped and degraded hallow pain filled hurt induced release it unto me i will take it all relieving you of it i cannot scream the words loud enough my love for you your hate for yourself these guide my way the path is dark consuming my want to change the way things are compels me drives me forward yet pushes you to push me away i want to touch your skin envelope you in my arms shield you from this pain kiss away the hurt u have but your want to be alone hurts the most i love you i want you to have this love to keep as your own

i want to hate you so badly but my love for you prevents it i want to scream in your face but all i would be able to do is cry i want to hit you so hard it knocks you on your ass but i wouldn't be able to hurt you like that i want to collect all the tears i have cried and send them to you but then you would know how much it kills to know me loving you made you cry too i want to take back all that i ever said but then there would be no memories of you i want to cut my heart out and place it in a neatly wrapped box and mail it to you as a symbol of how i will feel when all is said and done heartless and cold i want you to feel what i feel for you but you wont even try i want to hold you in my arms but you flee to the arms of one who may just hurt you again i want to hate you, HATE YOU,HATE YOU,HATE YOU... BUT i am weak and i can't

you had me at my weakest moment you made me feel strong enough to fight you are the epitome of love that i hold for you you made me feel beautiful even when i was feeling evil you showed me the light even though it was pitch black out it was hard to let you in i didn't do it on purpose you broke down my guard without saying a word i turn to your arms hoping they will engulf me knowing we will both drown if they don't i love you sunset and sunrises i love you blue skies and starry nights i will love you to my death or your resurrection i hold you in my heart every minute of every day you never leave my thoughts i worry if i dont know you are ok i love you jason more than you will ever know or understand

ill wipe away the tears with my finger tips ill kiss away the pain with my lips ill watch over your soul with my eyes ill keep you from the cold with my heart and ill keep you safe from harm in my embrace

dark demented full of pain screams no one hears tears no one sees in a pain no one feels with a rush of hurt a flash of negativity and things that no one can explain happen daily hurt filled words ring in my ears i want to lash out but there is no one else worth hurting i swallow my anger and fight off the pain i scream to break free a scream no one can hear because i'm told it's all in my head the hate feels like it is consuming me im tired of tears tired of anguish and pain worn down i relinquish my soul tired worn down feeling beaten no time for games the fight isnt worth it any more neither is the pain ill lay my head down let the guillotine fall tired worn drained

its so hard to see the beautiful things in life until i look in to your eyes and i see the most beautiful thing of all your soul and the beauty it holds to touch your skin to feel its softness to pull you closer to feel your kiss i crave you i need your feel the moan in your lust the cry in your moment the skin that you touch the time is near the time is coming take me im yours save me before the evil swallows me whole