Well, to start out, my man is an awsome person. I love him dearly. We do have our little fits just like everyone else. But they aren't the same way. We don't yell at each other, and we don't get mad or fight infromt of the kids. And it is normally solved within an few min. Funny, right? We are so much alike in those ways, I think we just know. We have been together for a very long time. But, he still hasn't asked me that all important question. And I feel like he is having his cake, and eating it, too. And it bothers me that he gose out almost every weekend, and I stay home with the kids and can't go out. (Can't find a sitter). But I am the one home with them almost all the time. If I'm not working, I am with them. They go everywhere with me. I can't even go to the bathroom without one or both of them. That is sad!! And then when we do get out together, we don't stay out passed midnight usually because he always tells me that there was this guy that was talking shit about me, and he wanted to hit him. How mature is that?
So, I really need to get out by myself. No man, and definatly no time limit. Maybe I might be able to make some real friends. Instead of just the ones I have on this pc. I don't call anyone but my mother, I don't have visitors, and I don't visit anyone. I seriously don't have any friends at all. The ones I did have, are too busy to chat. Or they have moved away. Life sucks. So, all I have is the kids, him and my parents. Yah, it is an easier life, but I would love to be able to have someone to really chat with and bmow off some steam with. Maybe that will happen someday. Just hope it won't be too late.
We were talking about getting married. Just haven't made it official yet. I found a gorgious dress. And it fits me great. I am so hoping that he will ask me really soon. But I doubt that. He was married once before. And that really turned out bad. But what he needs to realize is that I am not her. And I will never be her. Not even close. She was a very tall, wide red head. She looks like big bird with red hair. LOL And she is 2faced. Her kids are just like her, unfortunately. Well, I am cutting this off now. I need to get some sleep. Sorry about the babble. Just needed to blow off some things. Hope to chat with some of you all soon.
