Ya know. I always expect so much of things. And every time I pretty much get let down. I don't know why I go into everything with my head up... specially since every time I get hurt by something I swear to myself I will never do it again.
If both parties in most of the stuff going on cared then it wouldn't be so hard to fix. Right?
It wouldn't be such a one person clean up job.
Ugh.
I hate when I am the only one that tries to make things right.
I'm seriously at a lose of ideas as to what to do to fix all that has broken in the last week.
Dad still wont try... but what does that matter. I'm probably going to be kicked out anyway.
I've started on the Cris problem. But I don't even know how I want that one to be fixed. In my effort to be comfortable again I may have made things worse.
The friendship I had with Jon is a lost cause... now I just have to get myself to get over that. Which... will be quite the challenge since he was the shoulder I had when I needed someone to just lean on.
And so on and so on. I don't want to mention anyone that can read this. And everything else I don't want to even go into at this point.
-sigh-
I wish someone could just tell me what to do.
Becasue I'm at the point that I just want to give up on fixing all of that has gone sour.
No work today.
No work tomorrow.
No work Wednesday... and I get to go on a 3 hour car at 5 in the morning.
