Pickwick's blog: "Who I am"

  Well I figured I'd kind of give anyone reading this a glimps of who I am. No false confidence on here.

  My name, for starters is Alicia (Ah-lee-see-uh no "sh" sound), and I have a million nicknames, which I don't mind, but please do not ever call me Ali/Ally/Aly. It's just a personal pet peeve and it really irks me. Usually people call me Cisa, but anything else is fine. I will be 19 come late October. Yes, I am a Christian, I'll never hide it or be ashamed. But do know that I don't think it's right to force your beliefs on others, so if you're not a Christian that's your business and I won't throw any Bibles at you. One of my closest firends is a Wiccan so I care more about the person.

  I'm kind of a nerd, no one my age are into the same stuff as me so I'm a bit of a loner. I mean the whole fake "gangsta" and mexihussie lifestyles just aren't really my thing, and I'm not Latina Barbie material so. I love to read, mostly vampy/Were/ghosty/supernatural type things. And I like science fiction and alternative reality things, like anything from the author Jasper Fforde (look him up he rocks) and Douglas Adams. And yeah I'm almost 19 but I love Roal Dahl lol.

  And I love music, I'll listen to almost anything, from Hank Williams to Disturbed to Blondie or Heart to Amandma Palmer and Kutless. I love music, it inspires me to draw a lot of things and helps me design clothes. And same with movies, I like quite a few. My tops are; The Rocky Horror Picture Show (fave of all time), I LOVE the Crow too, The Day The Earth Stood Still -the original, Stephen King's IT, Labyrinth, Phat Girlz, and anything Tim Burton.

  Like I mentioned before I have designed women's clothes, it's been my dream since I was like 7 or 9 to be a designer. I think it's wrong that thicker or taller or shorter people have to pay huge prices for sometimes ugly plain and unflattering clothes. What if someone who's a little shorter or taller or even real skinny or with a little extra to work with wants to dress flirty? I mean with plus size clothes atleast it's two extremes, it's either plain beige and baggy pants, or streetwalker clothes that you almost can't go outside in. Where's the neutral pretty but decent clother UNDER $100 a shirt? That's my goal, I think every one on this planet is perfect, we just can't see it sometimes, and face it... with girls if you have an outfit you love you feel great on the inside too, which makes you shine on the outside.

  And yeah there are certain subjects that if I get started on I can't shut up lol. That ^ is one of them. 

 Anyway, I do have a lot of faults. I can get paranoid about stuff, worry and stress over things I can't fix. Even dreams can really get to me. Like I have these neurotic attacks I call them, I don't freak out, it's all going on inside, but I just feel kinda fidgety and closed off. I think it's mostly due to the tornado because it got worse afterward. I'm an emotional person, or atleast I think so. I get along with anyone, I love my friends and family with all my heart and if I feel close enough to you it takes a lot to hurt me, I give everyone every chance to be forgiven. 

  And just for the record, I was born without a lower growth plate in my left knee, that's what makes the leg grow straight, so from the knee down my leg is kinda...I don't know, bent? Curved? Anyway it's crooked, so I can't walk/stand for long periods. I can still do whatever I want, I just sometimes have to sit down. I'm not ashamed of it, yeah it means I limp when I walk but that's just me. It never even bothered me til I was old enough to realize guys might not like it, and girls could make fun of me. I won't apologize for anything about me... except sometimes I say stupid things or the come out wrong, which then I am sorry. 

  This is already pretty long so I better can it. This is pretty much me though, no lies or dressing up on anything. Love me or hate me. If you wanna talk to me that's great, and never feel like you have to pretend to be someone else, just be you, but if you're just going to bad mouth me don't waste the energy. Love to everyone!