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As many of you know I have been single for some time now and havent really been looking to fill the void in my life. Well I think tis about time for me to look around and see what the opposite sex has to offer me in life. so ladies send in your resumes and lets see what we if we can fill the job opening. No pre reqs or education level reqs.
Been a bit, so thouight Id update on me. I have returned to the USA from Korea after one year there. Was overall a good experience. I will be in Kansas for my next duty station on 10 March. Other then that, just livin life, not a whole lot going on.
Life is about living and trying new things. It is also about lessons and learning, Learning about yourself and others around you. Learning what you are and aren't capable of. What others are and arent capable of. What you like don't like. What others like don't like.
Anyways. I learned a great deal about myself in just a span of a couple hours. I learned that I am not capable of explaining my feelings to anyone. It always comes out wrong. In the end I come out looking like a flip flopping, game playing moron. People get mad get upset, and in the end noone wins. I learned that I am not a very lovable guy. Noone can really love me. Why should they really? I can't express myself in words very well. What I want doesn't really matter. People make their own conclusions and I get left tongue tied. I learned that I believe I was meant to be alone for my entire life. No kids, no wife, nothing. This breaks my heart most, as I really do want a family. I can't force someone to be with me if they dont want to be and I shouldnt do something just to keep them with me. If they really wanted to be with me, then they would understand and be with me regardless. I blame myself for how things have turned out in my life, thre good and the bad. I have a generally good life and am generally a happy guy. I hope one day to be completely happy. I had that once upon a time.
Ive been a slacker on this one I know, oops, not like anyone reads blogs anyways. So update on me. I'm currently in the army on an Air Force base. Just got dropped from a Navy school on this base. Now I'm waiting on a new MOS. Dissapointed but I still have my Army career and 7 years til I hit 20 is not that long.
Personal note. Dating a wonderful woman. We are in the new phase, so still learning about each other, but I love every second of it. I got really lucky this time, I can feel it. Things are turning around in my love life. I look forward to what the future holds.
Got my first car yesterday, a 1997 Ford Mercury Grand Marquis. Very excited, and quite comfortable driving for a guy who hasnt driven in a year, only had his liscense for two, never owned a car and is a nervous driver. Hoping to take a road trip soon with my new baby. I feel 16 again.
Other then that just staying out of trouble and living life.
As some already know. I passed my Military physical for the Army Wednesday, just a couple more paperwork details to work out, and I could beback in uniform in a month or so. Sooner the better.
Goin to be goin up to sacramento on Thursday (7 May) and will be gone from 7-18 may. I'm goin up there for my bros bachelor party and wedding. Should be good times
