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My father, I, and my father's cousin (my 2nd cousin and also one of my favorite people to ask advice)Cal. We had ventured to Millerpark this evening. New pitcher who just rocks, and let me just say this, my father has helped me to develope a taste for baseball. I had never been to the park myself although I had been to old county stadium plenty. I feel I might have ruined it alittle for my Dad however cause I was more into just being with him and cal then actually being at the park which I was thrilled to be at. It is beautiful. The game was great. Our new pitcher is brutal. The park is very very cool. But what was the most cool is being in the company of true men and being accepted as a equal. A little insight about me and my family coming up here, Cal used to take me to church when i was young, when the most important thing to me was when I wanted to be a choir boy. I am luthern so skip all the going through a priest, I am directly in contact with GoD is the best way I could describe the difference of a catholic. For some unremebered reason I tired of church or got lost or whatever. Anyway, Cal used to take me to county stadium all the time. Well to tell the story the right way I have to digress and tell you something aboutr my father and I's relationship. He is the only man on earth I trust with my inner feelings and panics and hates and fears and everything else. I grew up knowing I could tell my father anything and not worrying he would reject me. I am him in alot of aspects its scary soemtimes. Hes one of my heroes and at the same time been one of things I have hated about myself. this had prolly acured when I finally realized he was just a man like me. but now understand this there are different degrees of man. My Dad is top of alot of categories and the ones hes not are excused by me for his excellence in the formentioned. None are perfect, but if I could be half the man he is i would be 10x the man I am now. The game was great cause i spent it with them. also my brother which is 2 years younger but having some trouble with life. Ive had it and still do to some degree.He will overcome, I mean come on hes part us. I maybe touched on some topics that wernt appropriate but it was in good nature. I grew up violent very... not cause of anyone but me. I just didnt ever let kids hit me first or play the punk. I wasnt a bully but I was respected. Now keep in mind I am not violent anymore quite the opposite. but this would describe my state of mind the best. recently I had went to summerfest with a really really good friend almost a second brother. he is fresh out army and still aggro. I said something and he dead headbutts me in the face. I looked at him said wtf? and headbutted him right back hard as hell. but that was it, we were good after that. golden rule do unto others as you would have done to you correct? anyway we all got on the subject of waterboarding and i think i upset my father. he is completely against it and i am not. now i am not into or for physical toture but some non damaging mental torture was alright with me my dad was not happy but not pissed. i agreed that maybe i was wrong to calm it down. but to keep us safe the right people need to answer the questions we need answered. but my father made a point when does it start and end whos safe? just saome random thoughts about a otherwise great night. o brewers won.
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