what the fuck is wrong with me i am going out of my fucking head i keep trying to go farther away and end up closer than before i guess im just a glutton fo punishment every time i think im over it this bitch calls me back and right back in the trap i fall is at the fact that i thrive on the pain or for some sick reason i love the bitch i cant figure it out but i continue on this manhunt for myself i will win if it takes my life i will win thats the problem its a fucking game im so tired of fucking games i want something that is real for once something straight forward not an enigma i just cant grasp but until then i will continue beating myself up and trying to figure out why oh well
