Beautifully Broken's blog: "love"

How do you tell someone you love them when they are like far away? How do you make it work? How do you not cry when people say his name..? I do love him but i dont think he feels that way towards me... peace people!

Everyday i wounder when you will see who i truely am. I sit here and look at your pics. I think to my self that if only you could see me things would be better. I sigh and go to bed sleep like hell and wake up at 4 am crying. you never ask me once during the day if im ok but you dont care if you hurt me.I try to be here for you and i try to love you. I hope you never love me and i hope you cry for once.

Hey people i know you guys wonder who is freaky? well the answer is im a girl who is in love with someone that dont see how much pain shes in. everyday i cry not because of a guy because i hurt. i never tell anyone because no one ever believes me and i want someone to notice. i might have to have number 4 surgery if im nto careful or 5 how ever many they have to do to make me better. But this guys is the most loving guy in the world, he makes me laugh, smile and even feel important. I love him but i know it will never come to that. now i will be hurt nad in pain my whole life cause he means the world to me. Hes a great friend adn maybe even a great lover. And i hope he reads this one day. I do love you hottie! i do but i wish you could see the pain. Well its time for this cherry to go to bed. Night night everyone! KISSSES to everyone!!!!!! Love, ALex or freaky