Loss Blog by RaZnCoX
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created on 04/27/2007  |  http://fubar.com/loss/b77734

I woke up to find Major laying peacefully in his bed. Just like his mother Sissy, He passed away sometime during the night. And just like her, I did not see it coming! Having dogs is one the best things I know of in life. They make me so happy, and their love is unconditional. I guess my only consolation is that I now have his son Mickey to live on his stead. I loved that dog, I had only had him a short time. He has always lived with my mother, but recently he had decided that he only wanted to be with me. He must have known his time was coming. That maybe I could deal with his loss better than my mom. I just don't know. I know he adored me and was truly happy in my home. I am so sad and bewildered right now. It is a sad day in my family and a very sad day in the Yorkshire Terrier world. He was a National Champion and famous throughout the country. I love you Major! I miss you! Tell your mommy "Sissy" that I think of her every day and let your "Uncle Boomer" know I miss him so much! Take care of each other! I will think of you daily! Love Mommy

Since I have been on this site, I have lost 3 dogs... yesterday Boomer gave me his final kisses and drifted off to sleep. The love I have for my dogs in incredible, and the loss I feel today is so deep. He loved me so much! I was his whole world for nearly 16 years. I miss him so much.... I love you Boomy!

I sit here tonight, crying again.... I can't believe it has been almost 2 months since she died... I have even gotten myself a new puppy... But it isn't any better. I miss Sissy... I miss her so much! Last weekend I went camping. Took my two yorkies boomer and jewelie and my new Belgian Sheepdog, Gypsy. As I was coming into the campground I was overwhelmed with tears. I always took Sissy with me camping there and the last time I had been there she was right there with me. I miss the look in her eyes when she looked at me. I could literally feel how much she loved me! I picked up her ashes a few weeks ago. That was another day where I felt like I was living her death all over again.... This HURTS! I miss my dog! I understand nothing lives forever, but neverless I still want her back with me.
Today was a little easier, but it really gets me how people in my life have already kinda moved on and forgotten about the loss I suffered yesterday. I don't feel better, I lost my best friend! She wasn't JUST A DOG!!! I haven't had a drink in nearly 7 years. This is the first thing to happen to me in all that time, that I seriously considered going out and getting f**cked up! I didn't want to feel this way and I didn't want to think about her being gone. But she is gone, and drinking would have only made things worse. But I wanted anyone who read this to understand the scope of my feelings here. She wasn't your average everyday yapping dog. She was quiet, intelligent, and devoted to me. I miss her and my chest litterally hurts. She was my baby, my "Moochie" long before I had my daughter. I don't know how to end this, because this isn't over, so bye for now!
I have spent all day thinking about her. She had been with me since I was 23... Before I had my daughter I used to take Sissy with me everywhere. Stores, restaurants, bars, movie theatres... literally everywhere, usually hidden inside my shirt. I miss her. She was my constant. She loved me and only me. You should have seen how she protected my shoes. It was absolutely hilarious and I am gonna miss seeing her attack ankles if someone came to close to a pair of my shoes. I can't really describe this loss, it was sudden and caught me totally unaware. My vet now believes that she had an aneurysm. That she went very quickly in her sleep. There was nothing I could have done. I truly thank god that I was able to have last night with her. She layed on my bed with me and cuddled for a bit. She never stayed long, just long enough, but she always had to come up on the bed at bedtime. This is pain, like I haven't felt in a very long time. She was my friend and with me through all the bad times, she is the one who helped me through them. I love her so much.

And So it happens again! You know the joys that come with owning a dog are so great, but the losses come so quickly when they live such a short time. Today I lost my babygirl Sissy! The most wonderful, and devoted dog I have ever owned. I have had her since she was just a tiny baby. The sadness I am feeling right now is indescribable. She was nearly 13 years old and I wasn't expecting this. She was fine when I went to bed. Yorkies tend to live much longer than most dogs. I thought I had a few more years... My other three dogs are so upset, especially Sissy's brother Boomer. They were best friends. What am I gonna do without her??? R.I.P Sissy JeNan's Rock-a-bye Baby! April 27, 2007 Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

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