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What are you waiting for?
I wanted you. I wanted you to know we could have been perfect. We had all the right qualities. We looked perfect from a far, when you looked closely we fell apart.
You said I stopped caring, you could not be further from the truth. I cared than and I care still. In reality we were not who we thought we were. Yet I love you.
You took my strength turned it into greed, shallow dreams, selfishness and made it my weakness. You throw my weakness on my face. I loved you because I thought you were the same.
You said I hurt you, I never intended to do so. To you that was worse than intentionally doing it. I guess you saw it as if I did not care enough to see that the things I did hurt you. You deliberately took stabs at me and hurt me often going after things I trusted you with, things you knew would hurt me. I do not know what is worse.
I watched you slowly kill yourself one pill at a time. I watched helplessly. Any thing I said or did was not right, it was not good enough. After all what did I know? I had never been in your shoes. It must have been easy to watch some one you loved deteriorate. Forgive me for not needing those things. Once again, my strength was a source of weakness. It is easy for some one who never tried it to say "just stop" although I never said that.
The other day I saw a girl that reminded me of you. Her skin looked like yours. The scratch marks were visable. I wondered what the scars that once cannot see has done to her soul. She seemed scared and paranoid as if she knew some one was praying on her. She needed her fix. I wanted to approach her but I couldn't.
Not that you are well, you no longer need me. So you curb me and turn my strength into weakness and throw them in my face.
We could have been great. I loved you with all my heart. I hope you take chances in your life, recoop the time you've lost, dance in the rain, find some one you can't live without and never settle for some one you can live with.
