*sigh* It's amazing just how dabilitating depression can be for an individual. When I was in high school I was diagnosed with mild depression (which I neglected to mention last time) and it caused me some issues (mostly personal and grades) during my senior year. Well fast forward 12 years later (geez.. 12 years) It has become an issue for me again, as I mentioned in my last post. Well, unfortunately there were a series of problems (mostly family related) that hit me at the same time as this bout set in on me. Basically everything, the stress, anxiety and hurt were mulplied a thousand fold.
It's happened to me before, but not quite as bad this time around. It was just a really random set of circumstances that all happened at once. It was just random coincidence that they all happened at that time. Unfortunately it left me with random bouts of crying, a serious lack of sleep and I have been physically ill. I am getting better not really depressed anymore, but the first few days were really rough on me.
The physical illness seems to be what is going to hang on for awhile. Hopefully not too long. I am back to eating regularly again, so that's a good sign. The anxiety almost always causes a large acid build up in my stomach, which burns like hell. I guess you could call it a four alarm case of heart burn. That, along with my mind constantly wandering leads to a lack of sleep. That seems to be alternating nights now, at least. I sleep okay one night, lay awake the next.
The worst part of this is that I didn't have a therapy session scheduled this week, due to a scheduling conflict. All that aside, though it may not seem like it, things are getting better for me. My bouts of depression are getting farther and farther apart, hopefully gone for good soon.
