today as usual, i wandered down to surfside beach to think things through, ya know thats what tiggers do...smiles...anyhow the wind swept sand reminded me of the mountains of ny with the swirling looking like snow and me thinking of how things were there...and thinking of the friends the little i had, and thinking how my mom said snow was coming...lol..and then just when i was sitting on the bench overlooking the ocean, i was reminded why i came here, for not less than 30 yards i was greeted by not one, not two but three pods of dolphins amounting to at least 30 dolphins playing just outside the surf zone...they were fishing and i got to see exactly how they rounded up fish to eat, they created this huge circle and surrounded the fish, then darting in and out of the massive school of fish they began to eat,...lol.. but the best yet to see, was a baby dolphin swimming side by side his mother, in unision, up to take a breath and back down...that made it seem all the better, but coming home from the beach, i fell again into the depression that sent me there in the first place...i try to hold my thoughts to myself, and not lose it, but how long does the spirit last, before it cracks and loses it self in the pool they call depression?..anybody who know mes, knows that i am a very strong person, but there are even times i wish for the solitude of the woods where i can regain the knowledge that was bestowed to me...
