MasterofDisaster's blog: "Life"

Well for once I'm at a loss on what to write. Have thought about why men have to be so much dicks towards women but that is just a thought. Well one thing is we all know that people are that way to each other. I guess that is part of being human and a part of ife. Nothing seems real anymore.

People you meet one way or another whether in life or on-line they still have a tendency to frustrate and hurt you. You try to be nice but they still feel the need to step on you. Is it just the way they are or what. I refuse to change into an asshole like them even at the expense of myself. I will not change I will still be a caring person. Even if it means being alone. I have seen that there arent many older people on here but it is surprising how many of the younger ones go through the same hurt the same frustration. Why won't life change? It is surprising how many have been through a divorce or are a single parent. I look through these profiles those that catch my eye and I read the blog's and look at some of the pictures. They are beautiful people. And it is a shame they have to go through this. Can't we ever learn from our mistakes. Yes I look at the interesting profiles even though they are younger and where it is ok I answer a blog they have posted. They have become wise but it is at the expense of getting hurt. My heart goes out to them. Some would think beings I look at these profiles that I'm a pervert far from it. I'm a person that has lead a hard life in my time from bad relastionships to the lost of my oldest child. I just want to love someone.

No one out here on any singles sites or on myspace are real. Everyone feels the need to lurk. No one wants to take the time to know anyone. Age makes no difference. That is a thing that is all in anyones mind. We all can have fun no matter what it is. Life is to short to just do nothing. It really takes no time at all to email someone and to let them know how you feel or just a mintue to say how are you. We have become a society of lurkers. No one wants to be real anymore. No one wants to be real we have become a society of lurkers.

Whydo people feel the need to lie to people. I guess things are not always as they seem. I guess I should not be surprised at people lying to me. And especially on here. They say one thing and totally mean something else. Is it so bad you look for love and companionship and people have to take advantage of that.Well another week is done and gone. Got the cleaning, laundry and the ironing done. Yes ladies I do iron LOL Thanks to my Mother I learned all of those things and do like to have my dress clothes for work to be ironed with creases. Well the Emergency Operations Center at work asked around if we had pictures of our deployment which I did some of us do take pictures others do not. So I sent them a few and they had one that I forgot was taken. So I will put it in my pictures after I resize it. It was of me doing something I had never done before and that was stand up in front of a lot of people teaching them about the Blue Roof Program. Whew I got over that fast no time to get the nerves LOL we were on the Corps barge at Baton Rouge, Louisiana right after Hurricane Katrina had hit the gulf coast. I did a few new things before and some of the things I ran into I put in an earlier blog. I guess the District Commander wanted some to look at before the next town hall meeting we will have. When I dont know. It will feel funny to see me up on the wall while he is talking. That is if they use it. But it is nice to know that you are recognize for things you do. I enjoy my disaster work when I go. It was nice that last year was quiet maybe this year will be quiet to so folks can finish getting back to normal. It in better still when the people you are helping come up to you to thank you for being there that in itself means more then anything. Well hope all is well for everyone. I guess I'm at a time in my life and career would like to share it with someone. I guess that I didnt realize that it was so hard to find someone. Age for me in itself is not an issue like it is for some. I feel it is up to the people involved. Well later peeps have a good weekend.