This week should be the Happiest week of my life ~ the most beautiful baby boy with the most beautiful blue eyes Ive ever seen was born. I fell in love with him instantly. however everything else in my life has gone to crap. 2 people I love and/or care about have basically walked away or pushed me away for no reason. I know I can be difficult sometimes but there are reasons for it. I dont mean to be that way or so cold. You should be able to turn to those you care about when u have problems they should listen not give you grief. Life is very fragile - what if something drastic happens and u didnt tell the people u care about how u felt - what if they died thinking you didnt care. Life and Death has been on my mind alot lately and unlike the people who have hurt me beyond belief I plan on from now on living the rest of my time to the fullest and proving to the people I care about exactly how I feel about them. u shouldnt let people get so close and let them in only to hurt them by pushing them away. Its not right...
