Bite's blog: "life"

Ever notice what is going on in your life, whether good or bad seems like it will last forever? My best friend of almost 20 years passed quikly in life he was only 43, I was both a shock and a loss in my life that has never been filled back in. A few years later i met a weird campy lovable lady that I dated for a while. We didnt work well as a couple and i lay that blame on me, but we stayed in contact and she had become my best friend not to replace the first but on her own merrit . We laughed and joked ranted and cried and were just there for each other. She was there for me at my lowest points in life. Oct of 2013 she ended up having to have surgery to correct an illness.

Even though her mortal coil was there she was not the same person, she had become very bitter in life and people around her including me. I did what i thought I needed to and tried to latch on tighter and it seemed to only make it worse. I became the target for everything wrong in her life and i was insulted more times than not. I held on for over a year and finally made the decision to be done as much as it hurt me to do so. I did the total taboo and lied to her  and made her believe something that is not true but it made her angry enough to just stop dealing with me , like she has so many others. Yes what I said to her is very hurtful but it hurt me to do the same. The friendship we had will never be had again i know this and learning to live with it. I am 99.9% sure i never even cross her mind and this is just as well also. As hard as it was to lose my first best friend it is harder with the second. When the first passed away he was gone from this earth. The second has her mind and body here but her personality (atleast towards me) is gone forever. I wish her the best in life as my life now is doing really well but i wont forget the past the laughing the crying and the fighting for life together.

                       simple ways to know if you are country or city

             country                                                            city

wears camo and hunts and fishes                     wears camo and  skinny jeans together

Drives a 4x4 and has it dirty                            Drives a mini van or a car

actually knows how to saddle a horse              has to be lead like a child on a horse

owns atleast one hunting rifle & hunts            has no fire arms

drinks foldgers coffee                                       goes to the big chains like starbucks

can quad all day long                                    thinks it is part of the campus at college

hands scarred and scraped from life             does nails just cuz

buys boots for comfort                                  buys name brand boots to impress

owns a working dog that works                    gets a working dog that dont do nuffin

so y'all get my jist if your country cool man and if your city just as cool but just be what you are and dont be something your not we all hate pretenders

Ever notice that we see trainwreck's everyday and do nothing we would like to but dont. My life in the last few years has been not only a trainwreck but a roller coaster. I have done my best to learn from my past whats really sad tho people that were once close are no longer there. I see the same mistakes that were made years ago and shy away but to see others making their same mistakes of years before all i can do is watch the trainwreck because they dont seem to want to grow as people. this isnt directed at anyone but if it hits a nerve better look in yourself and change what needs to be. Yes change is hard and scary but it is also new and exciteing.