Damitt's blog: "life ?"

Feelings I Thought Gone

Brought back by a new person in my life

Back when I got divorced my ex-wife and I did try to fix things , but in the end there was a breakup that tore me apart. It was bad enough i had concidered doing things that would have changed /altered lives of others completely (no I did not even remotely concider doing anything to my ex). Just so you know I cared /loved her still to much at the time to harm her in any way , and tho I still have feelings tward her I could never love her again.

It took me a few years to try to get things strait feelings wise in my head before I even tried to ask anyone out or accept being ask out. There have been a few ladies in the last couple of years that I either met or actually went on a date with. Fast forward to this past week/weekend.

I met a lady this past week whe has good looks (lucky me as out of shape and overwieght as I am I got to meet and go out with a lady 6 foot tall and 130 lbs )is in her early forties dark naturally curly hair ( I like long curly hair on a lady) and was willing to look past physical things ( I know I'll catch it for this but lets face it in a beauty contest Godzilla woud beat me as well as the frankenstien monster).

We got together friday night and i had the pleasure of meeting her we seemed to hit it off and spent some time together friday night till I took her home. We made plans to do something saturday night. Saturday night was actually fun we did have a good time there was only one little hic-up the whole evening otherwise it was great and she was a lot of fun to be around not to mention me noticing all the heads she was turning like I said ealier in this post she is a nice looking lady. Again we had a great evening overall till like friday night it was time to take her home.

Now we arrive at today I needed to go into the shop to finish some work I needed to do. I got a call from her asking me to take her to the hospital as she was in pain from her knee due to a fall and yes I took her as a matter of fact I took her to several places for treatment the waits were long so you know the reason for going to different places. As the day wore on she got more and more bitter with the medical staff at the different places as they did not treat her fast enough for her. This is enough about the treatment centers. I had pick her up near the last place I took her because I had to return to the shop to try and accomplish something. Any way I took her to her home where in my opinion she had a melt down screaming at her dogs as well as trying to chase one that escaped to the outdoors she had gone to the cornner was rude with a lady in a car then went back the other dirrection sreaming the dogs name , then turned around going back to her place got beside a full garbage can and with all her might knocked it over scattering it's contents on the ground.

I had told her she could do her laundry at my place earlier in the afternoon. After seening her like she was durring said meltdown it brought back all those terrible feelings I had experienced back when my ex an I parted ways. After all I seen I left without her and headed home. she has tried to call me several time as I left without telling her I just had to get away I just could not deal with what I had seen tonight.

So let me ask this of those who read this should I give her another chance or walk away? BTW she does not know about how things were at the time of my divorce or how I felt.At this time I have not returned her calls sice I left her place.