SwEeTHoNeY's blog: "Life."

So much is going on in my life this fall. So much change and so much that I am going to need the strength to face.  I lost my mother last December and 5 months later lost my best friends’ mother. Every month has been a struggle to keep going and finding a reason to live and smile. I’ve relied on my faith, love for my job and school, family and lastly friends. This fall I have to come to reliving what happened this time last year. I have to deal with my mothers’ birthday and all the holidays.  I have so much good news that I’ would have shared with the women that mattered the most in my life, but I can’t.  I’m just hoping that the few people that have befriended me here will actually be supporters to me in everything that I do whether it is having a new person in my life or what I have for dinner. I don’t need drama in my life and that isn’t why I made an account here, but seems like that’s what I keep getting and that’s how people keep getting blocked. I have so much on my mind. I cry every night before I sleep because I miss her so much, and because I know I may never feel my mothers’ touch or hug again. People ask me why I am so nice or why I laugh so much. I smile and laugh not to cover the pain in my heart, but because I just hope if I never live to see tomorrow I would have made someone’s’ day.  I live my life now like there is no tomorrow. I am more open to travel to anywhere or do things I would never think about only because I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. I guess all I’m asking is, if you’re my friend just please stand by me no matter what, just like I will to you. I’m not perfect, but I know how it is to have a broken heart.