Well, i got a phone call last week from one of my brothers, telling me my other brother was in the hospital. its been wicked stressful worrying about him. he has cancer. and they gave me 6 months. he ad a surgery to remove it. But they didn't get all of it and it spread. now this kind of bums me out. they live in a different state. i have seen either of them for 10 years. we lost contact for awhile, and just recently started getting back in contact and getting to know each other. and i feel like i am being selfish for wishing there was more time to get to know him better. it sucks that stuff like this happens to such good people. he has 3 kids and they are really sad and that is understandable. i just wish there was something i could do . i hate that someone who i just started to get to know again and getting close to is going to die.
i know most people will say make the best out of the time you have with them now, and i intend to . I just cant stand to see someone suffer. it's just messed up how life works sometimes. i know this has probably been said a million times. why do bad things happen to good people. well i think this is the answer. good people just have bad luck. i hope that isn't true but that's what it seems to be like in this crazy world of ours.
I'm pretty much posting this because well i want to vent. and i know i vent a lot to certain people who i love and care about with all my heart. so i really don't care if no one reads this i just want to get this all off my chest. basically a way for me to get this all out of my head ,so i can relax and stop thinking about it even if its only for an hour. its been pretty much the only thing on my mind since i found out. and I'm not posting this to get pity or to have someone pray for my brother. its just a way for me to get these things off my chest. so honestly if someone reads this cool if not then well its helped me . and that is pretty much all i have to say..........
Trev
