SilverWolfeThe Rogue Lobo Femme's blog: "Life Today"

Well, yes the ex's wife left him Sunday. I went all week long being his shoulder to cry on...and knew that it wasn't the pain he'd caused me that he was crying about. I finally pulled it out of him last night because he was still trying to hold onto me. I couldn't handle it anymore, I couldn't be his shoulder to cry on any longer. Because of the stress he's put her under, the child she's carrying is in danger. She is now forced onto strict bed rest for the remainder of her pregnancy. Hypertension, Gestational Diabtetes, and swelling of the legs and feet. He's finally seen what he's done and what he's caused and realizes some of the pain he put me through while carrying both of our kids. He's in a lot of pain...but I can not help him through it anymore. Karma is a bitch and I am getting mine. I'm OK, hanging in here and holding my head high. I've done some things that I never should have done because I loved him. It's a hopeless cause, I know that now and will no longer play the part of the fool. My life will be lived for my children, my happiness be damned. I just want to make sure that my kids are taken care of the way they need to be and to know that they are loved regardless of the decisions their father and I have made. So yes I am single again...no I AM NOT LOOKING FOR ANYONE! So please, just leave it alone. No I don't need a shoulder to cry on. I allowed this to happen and went against everything I stand for while doing it. This is my Karma, and I deserve to be miserable for a while, LOL. --Melissa

I'm excited and wanted to share it with my friends. My ex's wife left him this morning. He'll be filing for seperation as soon as he gets up the money, which will hopefully be the end of the week. Then the trouble of dealing with her and the child they've conceived, she's threatening to abort the pregnancy because she wants no further contact with him. She's too far along to get one performed legally, but I know its a lie, she just doesn't want him to have any contact with her ever again, even if it means lying to the child about his paternity. We're going to try and do all that we can to make sure that he's able to see his child, and quite possibly seek full custody of the baby. We're going to take our time, we still have issues of our own to work through, but we are going to try and make it work. This time we know what went wrong and how to fix it and make sure that it doesn't happen again. He has to earn every bit of love that he will receive from me until my faith in him is completely restored, step one has happened...step two will hopefully come along this week with the filing of the seperation. I haven't made up my part what part three will be yet, LOL...but trust me, I'll think of something. Thanks to those who read this, LOL. Drama is in full context on this and just about any site out here...but I know I can atleast vent here, LOL.

Well...things have changed yet again... The ex and I are working on fixing things and getting back together. One unfortunate problem has resulted of his marriage to his wife...she is now pregnant and he is trying to find a way to back out of the marriage without chance of loosing contact with his child. Four months into his marriage he realized that he wasn't in love with her and never was...he had only done what he did out of spite for an argument that we had gotten into where I stated that I would never marry his sorry ass...LOL...he's not blaming me, blaming himself because he was so stupid. I'm giving him chance again because in my heart, no matter how hard I tried to stop loving him and move on with my life...I finally realized that I still loved him after he started asking if there was a chance of us getting back together. We talked for weeks about it before I finally realized it, because I was very hesitant at first. We are soul-mates, I know him better than anyone else, and he the same about me. No matter how hard we tried to move on with our lives, we couldn't...our souls are combined and meant to be together. (Best way I could explain it, because he gets under my skin like no one else in this world can, and me the same with him, LOL.) We also have two children together. That was the main reason why I am giving him the chance to prove that he is the man he once was. His children love him so very much...and I have to give him one final chance, for their sake because he is a good man and they never saw him any differently...its me he has to do the proving to now. Just felt like I'd add an update since I hadn't undated this blog in a long while. Take care all my Fubarian friends that actually give a shit, LOL. Good night!

Well, I am single, have been since November. After four and a half years and two kids he decides to call it quits and gets married less than three weeks later, when three weeks prior we had finally set a wedding date for March...LOL... Oh well. We're dealing with visitation issues now, not too terrible, the woman he married has two kids from her previous marriage that are three and four...our three year old is not exstatic and proceeds to tell Daddy just what she thinks when she talks to him. Our son just turned a year old in January, he's confused, but atleast he knows who his father is and that won't be a problem when or if I ever find anyone else. Atleast he's not disputing the fact that I'm the better parent for custody. We're trying to deal with issues like adults and not have to go through the court systems. Atleast he's finally paying me the child support we agreed upon. When we were together he couldn't even give me half of the ammount he gives me now. He knows I have him by the balls and that he will pay up or I will take him to court. Just needed to vent to those of my friends on here that still give a damn, LOL. I know I am not on hardly at all anymore, but I am working on getting a new car and getting a new job. My laptop is on order and should be here shortly. This computer I am on is a bunch of crap and I can hardly ever get anything to pull up on it right. Peace to all and I hope to be better at keeping in touch soon!