This past weekend has been hell. I don't want to go into details, for personal reasons, but my dearest and closest friend is in ICU right now. I spent all weekend in the hospital. Had to work this evening, so I'm at home. I'm so worried. When something tragic happens to someone in your life, you begin to realize how important people are to you. I'm not sure if any of you know, but 2 years ago, after i had my baby, I began to suffer from post partum depression. It was severe. I wasn't myself. I was miserable. And, I overdosed on effexor. I was in the ER, having seizures, it was a bad ordeal. A very very very bad ordeal. I realized then that the people close to me in my life, almost lost me. I began to see how important I was to ppl. This person was there for me when i tried to kill myself... and now, with her illness, and thinking i was almost going to lose her, i was so scared. When i arrived to the hospital, I was bawling. I couldn't think straight. All these things were running through my mind... being unable to help someone is a horrible feeling... i was so worried about her, still am... I almost lost my best friend. The person I've decided is my "That person"... th person you know who was meant to be in your life... who will always be there... that person who is in a sense your soul mate... and i've truly learned what FEAR is.... When Tash was in the Hospital, i KNEW she was going to be ok... i was soooo hurt and sad and upset cuz she was in pain... but i knew she was going to be ok... with this sit... i didn't know... i did not know if she would make it through the night.... i was terrified i was going to lose my best friend... I almost died. She means the world to me.... so for those of you who know me, please say a prayer for her... she's going through a lot right now, and needs prayers... thanks...
