so I ask myself what is love is it just a feeling or is it something bigger is it a way of life I do not know but I was in love once and its a crazy thing I miss that it was like my life was different not the same almost in-between real and fake but I know I was happier than I ever was it was like I was living someone else's life then it went all bad I got engaged and then I found out she cheated on me and I dumped her and ever since then I have been questioning myself I closed myself out and now I need to open back up and start living again its like I have changed to some one I do not know I want to love again and its hard when all I do is kickit at home on the computer its interesting to meet people on here but I don't expect to find miss right on here its fun talkin to females on here but you never know what kind of person some one is until you hang out with them for a while and still that isn't always show you who some one is unless they open up and let you into their mind I am a good judge of character but I have been wrong before no one is perfect but I am a good guy and all I want is to be happy and make some one else happy I believe it could happen but not if I don't get back out there and find that lady that I have been looking for all my life my soul mate I am a funny kind of guy but I am shy when I meet a female I like so thas hard to get things started I end up being friends when I really want a relationship maybe I am doomed to be alone I don't know it all depends on me and that's a fact I am just confused on were to start so love will not just find me if I am home on the computer all the time I realized that fact but were do I go I don't drink too much so bars are out of the question and I am not sure were else to look I want to be happy again like I was its like no feeling I have ever felt my friends said I found true love by the way I was acting but it didn't last but I guess it wasn't meant to be I believe in destiny things happen for a reason but what that reason is I haven't a clue life is just a long line of choices and decisions and I am here to say I can't diside what I want to do but I want to do something different than what I have been doing and thats not too much just chillin on here tryin to figure out what I want so thats all for now hit me up if ya want to get to know a good guy I am nice and funny and a real person I can't stand people who act like something they aren't so be real
